Wow, she's got a lot coming.

Although if she's not emotionally invested after In My Time of Dying ...

The show is only a few months older than my child.

Unpossible. Then again, last time I saw Tickybox was last week, not 5 (or was it 6) years ago.

I am sitting on my hands so much--especially when John whispers to Dean and Dean looks so quizzical and sad and...my poor little babies....

She's adecently easy to tears when it comes to some triggers, and I'm curious to see if Show ever hits any of them. I think the car crash didn't get me the first time round, but it does ever second rewatch. I clearly always liked Dean, but when I understood I loved Dean was when he worked out John was possessed. That was such heartbreak.

I'm flipping through deviantArt, trying to pay more attention to other people's fanart, in order to help me and mine, and now I have all episodes of all seasons clamouring for time in my head at once--I can't wait for her to reach Croatoan, Mystery Spot...oh, there's so much there there, and we're not even at Cas yet.

Though, Jesus, if I never saw anyone else's SPN cosplay, it would be too soon. I don't know when the last time I saw anything good enough to make up for the really crap blended stubble and awkwardly spiked hair and creepy kissing (couples who cosplay ships make me feel intrusive not fannish) all over the place.

Speaking of other fans, unsurprisingly Destiel fans are in good cheer, for many reasons. I love the deep meaning excised from every single thing. There's a chair on the other side of the room from where Dean is sitting when he prays, and clearly it's Castiel's chair, so he can sit and watch Dean when he sleeps. There was also something about a desk with a typewriter that was also Castiel's but I don't remember that rationale. Clearly it was incontrovertible, though.

I clearly always liked Dean, but when I understood I loved Dean was when he worked out John was possessed. That was such heartbreak.

That was such a moment. The way JA's expression changed as he realized ... gave me shivers.

Speaking of other fans, unsurprisingly Destiel fans are in good cheer, for many reasons.

I rambled about that scene at length to S., who very patiently listened. What I loved about it was the feeling that their bond really is transcendent -- it doesn't have to be sexual, it doesn't have to be buddies hanging out drinking beer, it doesn't even have to be brothers (or brothers in arms). It's totally its own thing, and it's the deepest kind of love Dean has felt for anyone outside of his family.

I think the fact that it's not sexual is what got sister to watch, actually. I was explaining the conflicting "why are they putting so much into it if it's not going to feature genitals???" and "it doesn't need to move past this point to be perfect!!!" and I think she needed to see what that meant for herself.

It's incredibly satisfying to cheer on exactly what's onscreen. Completely separate is the what-if-they-were-naked part of it. I adore the canon interaction so deeply, and I really do wonder at how much they put in, because it is really complicated and multilayered and both Jensen and Misha have a lot in there that's likely not in the script (but may come from directors--no way to be sure). There are a lot of tics that are easy to build a case out of, but since I don't believe in current or future canon Destiel, I just wonder at the choices.

Speaking of choices, something came across my dash that said that "Pudding!" was originally Sam's line? Uh, what? Thanks for moving that, whoever was responsible. I think it's borderline Dean, and Sam is not the one with the Mottsy stuff, not even in a pinch (well, while sober). I'm so glad that panned out the way it did.

And...she's invested! You were right, Amy. She wasn't making it out of IMTOD with her walls intact.

We're sending tomes back and forth, and I can honestly say I'm surprised that I've never made Asimov's laws of robotics into the laws of Dean. I mean, he's really simple, no?

• Dean may not injure Sam or through inaction allow Sam to come to harm.
• Dean must obey orders given to him by John, except where such orders would conflict with the First Law.
• Dean must save people and hunt things as long as the family business does not conflict with the First or Second laws

That and pie.

Dean may not injure Sam or through inaction allow Sam to come to harm.

Dean must obey orders given to him by John, except where such orders would conflict with the First Law.

Dean must save people and hunt things as long as the family business does not conflict with the First or Second laws

That and pie.

This needs to be on a poster somewhere.

Also, yay sister of ita! I knew you could do it.

I love this episode to itty bits, starting from the actual eagle snacking on liver.

ita's Laws of Dean = genius.

Oh! And Dean's comment about a guy who fights like Jason Bourne, dies a lot, and has a history with violent women being Sam! Heh.

That was funny. And sad.

I liked the eagle.

My sister is asking me, as of Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things, if Dean is an alcoholic. I've been pretty careful to only answer in her present tense, and give only sweeping ideas of changes (Sam gets a lot of perspective on Dean in season 5, that sort of thing), but I don't know how to answer that, because I wasn't wrapped up in his drinking that earlier, but I'm clearly obsessed now...

The two of us might just be related.

Here are liveblogging excerpts:

Everybody Loves A Clown:

This is totally realistic grieving. They're grieving individually the ways you would expect they would as characters, and they're responding to each other's grieving as a dyad the way you'd expect them to - recriminations, mis-understandings etc. Cos it's all based on what we know of them as brothers. For a split second early on I thought they'd gotten over it too easily. Not.

Bloodlust (she's a Gordon fan):

Sam's bangs are parting. Will see if there's any symbolic meaning as the season progresses.

"You can't just fill up that hole with whoever you want to." Unless, of course, that whoever is Cas.

like the idea of vampires as victims.

Ah, that's what black guy doesn't know. He says he and Dean are alike, but Dean would not have killed his sister if she had been turned into a vampire. And that's why Dean will always be a little grey, try as he might not to be. And that's what Sam points out at the end.

Children Shouldn't Play With Dead Things:

Ooh, Sam watching porn? Fully dressed? Really? He needs practice.