Also, Lisa called Dean six times and he never called back? Wait? What? Wasn't Dean calling her over and over and she wasn't answering? I prefer that version of the story and I'm sticking to it.

Yeah, I seem to recall that from earlier in the season too. You don't get to repeatedly stonewall someone's attempts to contact you and then be all outraged at them for doing the same to you afterward.

Lisa's absolutely in the right to have kicked Dean to the curb for Ben's wellbeing and her own, but doing so is not compatible with blaming him for leaving.

didn't they show Lisa repeatedly calling Dean after the whole vampire!Dean incident and him avoiding? or did i make that up?

The one thing I didn't get that I wanted--desperately--from this ep was when Sam said, and meant, and Dean believed, that he had Dean's back. Just once I'd like Dean to say that to Sam. I know it's demonstrated in his concern and determination to save Sam, and Sam's soul, and souled Sam. But I think articulating it aloud would acknowledge Sam as an adult and an equal partner. I just think it needs to hit the air.

I'm remembering Dean staring at the phone a lot and wanting to call Lisa, but not doing it, although I could be wrong. I think she was calling him after the vampire thing, though.

Now I have to rewatch. Poor me.

Poor Amy.

are we to guess he's self-medicated with prescription drugs before? when?)

The way he said "effective" made me think that these are not uncommon for him. It was a shocking moment for me. I'm comfortable with Dean abusing alcohol, but I never thought about him doing other drugs. That was a huge fucking bomb to drop with no other details.

Can it be Friday already? Seriously? I need to get the taste of this ep out of my mind. I think it was right and in character and maybe even necessary, but I want to forget it. But may I say, as I do probably every week, did you see Jensen's facial expressions that completely sold each and everything he was feeling? Damn, dude.

I took Dean ignoring the calls from Lisa as a way of avoiding explaining all the Lisa stuff to Sam. If Sam's memory is supposed to be blocked of all that happened after he fell into the pit, his last memory of her was telling Dean to go have a real life with her.

But I should probably rewatch tonight.

In my marathon with bon we just finished The Kids Are Alright.

My god, I used to love Ben. I'm ho-hum on him right now, in comparison. But that ep was fun.

Watching him walk out of the house was a huge echo of last night's ep. It's the same guy with the same problems, just now he's had a taste of what he's missing. And he still thinks he can't do it.

I cried during AHBL I & II, but discreetly on the side away from bon.

Misha on MTV's Top Ten something. Has a brief clip from next week's ep, and Misha tries to explain the premise. And talks about sleeping with Paris Hilton and Jensen seeing him naked. And Jensen expresses his love for Misha.

Also, sock monkey hat.

It's full of win.

Aw, the hostess thinks Misha is "slightly crazy." Unless she hangs out with Sean Young or Phil Spector, that's something of an understatement.

SOCK MONKEY HAT. God, I love him.