I'm remembering Dean staring at the phone a lot and wanting to call Lisa, but not doing it, although I could be wrong. I think she was calling him after the vampire thing, though.

Now I have to rewatch. Poor me.

Poor Amy.

are we to guess he's self-medicated with prescription drugs before? when?)

The way he said "effective" made me think that these are not uncommon for him. It was a shocking moment for me. I'm comfortable with Dean abusing alcohol, but I never thought about him doing other drugs. That was a huge fucking bomb to drop with no other details.

Can it be Friday already? Seriously? I need to get the taste of this ep out of my mind. I think it was right and in character and maybe even necessary, but I want to forget it. But may I say, as I do probably every week, did you see Jensen's facial expressions that completely sold each and everything he was feeling? Damn, dude.

I took Dean ignoring the calls from Lisa as a way of avoiding explaining all the Lisa stuff to Sam. If Sam's memory is supposed to be blocked of all that happened after he fell into the pit, his last memory of her was telling Dean to go have a real life with her.

But I should probably rewatch tonight.

In my marathon with bon we just finished The Kids Are Alright.

My god, I used to love Ben. I'm ho-hum on him right now, in comparison. But that ep was fun.

Watching him walk out of the house was a huge echo of last night's ep. It's the same guy with the same problems, just now he's had a taste of what he's missing. And he still thinks he can't do it.

I cried during AHBL I & II, but discreetly on the side away from bon.

Misha on MTV's Top Ten something. Has a brief clip from next week's ep, and Misha tries to explain the premise. And talks about sleeping with Paris Hilton and Jensen seeing him naked. And Jensen expresses his love for Misha.

Also, sock monkey hat.

It's full of win.

Aw, the hostess thinks Misha is "slightly crazy." Unless she hangs out with Sean Young or Phil Spector, that's something of an understatement.

SOCK MONKEY HAT. God, I love him.

Sock Monkey Hat FTW! I can't wait. Have I said that? Cause I can't.

I love what this does to RPF. Now there's Misha, and there's "Misha." There will apparently also be "Gen." And, of course, "Jensen" and the Polish guy, but I don't know if we'll get to meet them or find out about their personalities much.

Do you think people will write "Misha" differently from Misha? Not that I know how Misha gets written consistently, but from looking at the promo, and just by guessing, I figure "Misha" is a lot more silly and doesn't do, say, charity work.

Also, it means that "Misha"/Cas is on the table, as well as "Dean"/Misha and other permutations. Doesn't set off my RPF squick at all, just makes me dizzy. And makes me wonder about all those comms and challenges with strict rules. Now "Misha"/"Gen" is on the table for J2_SPN Bang, but Misha/Gen is not.

The Polish thing cracked me up. And doesn't Jared actually say, "I'm apparently something called a Jared Padalecki"? Or close? Like it's another species! (A giant one.)