I love how hardcore everyone is. All the Winchesters, and then the Novaks take that and add insanity to the mix. Despite the warnings, I read the addendum, and jesus christ on a fuckstick.

And, yeah, Dean and Cas are both total saps. I'm kinda sad there wasn't a hug, though. We could at least have had that much. But unconscious handholding will have to do.

I went looking for fic yesterday and may be permanently scarred. From the warning, I didn't even look at the fic. It was an RPF with reference to rape and past child abuse. I'm still processing how bad I feel, knowing that is even out there.

ew

Right? And I only searched for Dean Castiel fanfic. Because I have really bad influences here. But I didn't get any reading done. That kind of spoiled the mood.

You need D/C fic, just ask here. Don't go out into the scary world.

I'm rereading scaramouche's It's Always The End Of The World Somewhere. God, I love that story.

Nanoochka updated, and I'm still feeling apprehensive. But, porn!

I heard the perfect Castiel song on NYE. It was sung from an angel POV about a de-winged angel with a mission no one understood. But google wouldn't help me with the title. I can't believe I failed.

Nanoochka updated

Ah, that fabled night that's been haunting the fic. Hot damn.

This update makes me think I know how the story's going to end, but really, that's how the story has to end. Not that it will.

I . . . haven't a clue. I still see so many possibilities, and that's without throwing in the wrench that could be Kurt finding out about the supernatural and Dean's past involvement with it.

But doesn't this update mean that Dean LOVES Cas and therefore they totally have to be together? No? I'm just making shit up to make me happy?

It's possible. I should just go back to fic that has already chuffed me, but is not schmoop. And stop being scared of this one. Because people like to hurt me.

No? I'm just making shit up to make me happy?

I'm sorry ita, I'm so, so sorry.

My kneejerk from this chapter is that (and don't read this) Cas is Dean's epic an unattainable unrealistic true love, and while he loves Kurt, and may stay with him, he's settling, and will always be heartbroken that he and Cas could never truly be together.

Don't worry, my speculation gets worse: except the supernatural is still out there, and it comes into Dean and Kurt's lives, and Kurt either freaks and dumps Dean (which, Kurt is a cool cat, and probably would react amicably) or Kurt gets killed, and Cas is still absent, and Dean is ALL ALONE in the end.