Mine are:

• the entire second half of The Benders (way too much of an X-Files "Home" vibe in that one for me)

• Dean with the shotgun under his chin in Simon Said

• Gordon stalking Sam in Fresh Blood

• the girl in the walls in Family Remains

• the final scene in the restaurant in My Bloody Valentine

Show doesn't scare scare me. It upsets me emotionally and grosses me out.

The melon spoon? The drano-drinking? The mutual vore in MBV? The fingernail plucking? Can't watch those scenes again. Most of Bloody Mary? Skeevy time.

Scenes like YED!John give me dirty bad thoughts. Sure, my heart is going thumpety thump, but the rest of me is pretty traitorous at that point.

Which isn't to say I don't shriek "Don't do it!" at my screen. Just that it doesn't tend to linger.

Ooh Top five dirty bad thought scenes!

dirty bad thought scenes

1. Sam with Jo in BuaBS

2. Sam with Ruby in IKWYDLS

3. Meg with Dean and Sam in Shadow

4. Sam with Madison in Heart

(I'm seeing a pattern here)

(and yes)

5. John/YED up close and personal with Dean in Devil's Trap

Evidently there is no Dean dirty bad wrong.

Stuff on TV never scares me the way movies can, because of the limitations, I guess. Although that X-Files ep sure did.

Skeevy/gross is not the same thing for me -- I don't even have to look away from most of it, unless there are bugs or things with too many legs near mouths.

God, I had forgotten the drano drinking. That was hardcore.

I think ... sharing my dirty bad wrong thoughts would be embarrassing and possibly too revealing. (Like how hot demon!Sam was when he had Jo up against the bar. Mrph.)

Dirty bad thoughts:

• Evil!Winchesters (all three, Meg, YED, Skinwalker (goddamned Skinwalker)) (playing Perkins style here)
• Dean popping the clip out of that gun in Long Distance Call
• Castiel beating the everloving shit out of Dean
• Sam treating his sex partners like rag dolls
• "Last time someone looked at me like that, I got laid."

These are not things I think I should find as...rrowr as I do, but it's too late. They're damned hot.

I think ... sharing my dirty bad wrong thoughts would be embarrassing and possibly too revealing. (Like how hot demon!Sam was when he had Jo up against the bar. Mrph.)

Ahem. (points up)

Heh. I saw that, Bev! I feel better now.

Dirty bad:

• demon!Sam with Jo
  
• yes indeed, BAMF Cas beating on Dean
  
• Dean and his paperclip escape in the pilot
  
• End!Verse Dean knocking himself out and dragging him back to his cave cabin
• oooh, Dean in Wendigo, calling for the creature to come get him

Do you think if you went to therapy and explained to your therapist what about Supernatural you found compelling and hot she'd try and fix you? Sometimes I wonder, and sometimes I have faith in the profession.

I mean, there is nothing right about Cas beating up Dean, except...everything. Everything was right.

Mostly I judge myself by imagining what my mother would think if she knew.

Oh, lordie.

I judge myself way more harshly for demon!Sam and Jo, honestly. And demon!John, who should have been on my list, really, but that paperclip thing and the naughty, completely confident look in Dean's eye ... Mrph.

I think if I tried to explain it to a total civilian, eyebrows would definitely be raised. "So, there are these brothers, and their mom died in a fire, and their dad never gave them a home, and they're doomed by heaven and trained to fight evil, and they're generally bleeding and in pain, emotionally as well as physically ... Thursday nights at nine on the CW! Check it out!"

I mean, who wants to watch that?! Except I do, so very much.