Stuff on TV never scares me the way movies can, because of the limitations, I guess. Although that X-Files ep sure did.
Skeevy/gross is not the same thing for me -- I don't even have to look away from most of it, unless there are bugs or things with too many legs near mouths.
God, I had forgotten the drano drinking. That was hardcore.
I think ... sharing my dirty bad wrong thoughts would be embarrassing and possibly too revealing. (Like how hot demon!Sam was when he had Jo up against the bar. Mrph.)
Dirty bad thoughts:
- Evil!Winchesters (all three, Meg, YED, Skinwalker (goddamned Skinwalker)) (playing Perkins style here)
- Dean popping the clip out of that gun in Long Distance Call
- Castiel beating the everloving shit out of Dean
- Sam treating his sex partners like rag dolls
- "Last time someone looked at me like that, I got laid."
These are not things I think I should find as...rrowr as I do, but it's too late. They're damned hot.
Heh. I saw that, Bev! I feel better now.
Dirty bad:
- demon!Sam with Jo
- yes indeed, BAMF Cas beating on Dean
- Dean and his paperclip escape in the pilot
- End!Verse Dean knocking himself out and dragging him back to his
cave cabin
- oooh, Dean in Wendigo, calling for the creature to come get him
Do you think if you went to therapy and explained to your therapist what about Supernatural you found compelling and hot she'd try and fix you? Sometimes I wonder, and sometimes I have faith in the profession.
I mean, there is nothing right about Cas beating up Dean, except...everything. Everything was right.
Mostly I judge myself by imagining what my mother would think if she knew.
Oh, lordie.
I judge myself way more harshly for demon!Sam and Jo, honestly. And demon!John, who should have been on my list, really, but that paperclip thing and the naughty, completely confident look in Dean's eye ... Mrph.
I think if I tried to explain it to a total civilian, eyebrows would definitely be raised. "So, there are these brothers, and their mom died in a fire, and their dad never gave them a home, and they're doomed by heaven and trained to fight evil, and they're generally bleeding and in pain, emotionally as well as physically ... Thursday nights at nine on the CW! Check it out!"
I mean, who wants to watch that?! Except I do, so very much.
When my sister and I send fandom artifacts back and forth, we're a portrait in the same just expressed in different shows. She sent me one clip with a guy crying and she's all "You like how he did that!" I'm all "Honey, you have no
idea
how in it I am for the crying! My show is the weepiest!"
There are a lot of times Dean makes me think the sexy thoughts, but they're not what I would necessarily call...well, not as wrong as the evil or the beatdowns. That one dopey shot where he's grinning with the pen in his mouth from somewhere in S1, I think? Dreamy as all hell. But I feel pretty healthy about that. I could tell my mother about that.
My mother already wants to know why I'd have sex with a vampire. But I don't think I could explain
all
of SPN's appeal to her.
Well, that's the thing -- I wouldn't be embarrassed to tell my mom Sam with Madison or even Sam with Ruby was hot. That's just good plain sense, for me. I think she might even get Dean tapping the clip in Croatoan (which melts me).
Telling her about Cas beating up Dean? Or even -- fuck, I just remembered this -- Dean going apeshit on the vampire in Bloodlust? Not happening.
Whoa, Freudian slip there, or something.
I mean, who wants to watch that?! Except I do, so very much.
Now you sound like the Damien-Dean dialog.
