For me, that story isn't a kink. It's just ... sad. Too possible, even with the coincidence of how they meet. I shouldn't really rec it as a hooker!fic, because it's not that for me -- it's about how broken they both are, a horrible what if . And the only reason I can even read it is because of the not knowing. Otherwise, I'm where you are.

Ignoring fic recs (I'm supposed to be working), but I'm working from home and Pilot + Wendigo are on today. Such young boys. They have matured well, but so nice to see them when their only worries were the things that went bump in the night.

I poked at the beginning of the story to see if I could, and no, I can't. I see how it's totally different from most of the other stories that fall into that general category that I've bumped into, but it's just so overwhelmingly extra sad that I'm gonna steer clear.

I was watching with you, Suzi! I really have to stop. I've now watched through the reruns three full times now, excluding S5 obviously, and I could probably use those two hours a little more productively every day.

That story is grim, ita. I sobbed the first time. Extraordinarily well done, though.

Do we need any ties broken?

S4, R2, B1/2

• Raised you from perdition: has to be the most awesome introduction of a new character, ever
• a cruel capricious god: because he was and we didn't know it!
• Promise me you won't get out of bed: oh, DEAN!
• I'll take that as a compliment: Sammy's growing UP and I don't think Dean likes it.

S4, R2, B2/2

• Dude, you're confusing reality with porn again: doesn't eveyone do this? Makes my life a lot happier.
• How does He live with Himself?: I think we all want to know that, Dean
• So I'm sorry it wasn't me, all right? Dean, I'm sorry: oh, SAM!
• They're supposed to make you miserable! That's why they're family!: there is nothing like Bobby bringing the smackdown!

We don't need ties broken, we need people to go back in time and vote garrison, dammit.

Season 4, Round 2, Bracket #1/2:

• Castiel: I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition.

• Dean: Sam loves research. He does. He keeps it under his mattress, right next to his KY. It's a sickness, it is.

• Dean: On November 2nd 1983, don't get out of bed. No matter what you hear, or what you see. Promise me you won't get out of bed. 10:4

• Young Mary Winchester: I want a family. I wanna be safe. You know the worst thing I can think of, the very worst thing, is for my children to be raised into this like I was.

Season 4, Round 2, Bracket #2/2:

• Sam: Dude, you're confusing reality with porn again.

• You know, why doesn't He help?

• Sam: I tried everything. That's the truth. I tried opening the Devil's Gate. Hell, I tried to bargain, Dean, but no demon would deal, all right? You were rotting in Hell for months. For months, and I couldn't stop it. So I'm sorry it wasn't me, all right? Dean, I'm sorry.

• Castiel: Uriel's the funniest angel in the garrison. Ask anyone.

We have one tie, for the record. Also, if five more people vote garrison, it'll totally take it. Go garrison!

The anti-woo-thinking book that tommyrot brought up in natter made me think of the quotes battling here: "If He doesn't exist, fine. Bad crap happens to good people. That's how it is. And no rhyme or reason, just random horrible, evil. I get it. Okay? I can roll with that. But if He is out there, what's wrong with Him? Where the hell is He while all these decent people are getting torn to shreds? How does He live with Himself? You know, why doesn't He help?"

Go Dean. You tell 'em. Even though I voted stabbination.

Dean is, sometimes, the king of realism.

Except when he's thinking he's the one who's supposed to fix everything bad that ever happened to his family.

S4R2B1:

perdition
research
get out of bed
you and Dad

S4R2B2:

reality with porn
Bad crap
brothers
family