Jane was aspirating and he left her. Totally not legally responsible. (morally is a different story)

But I think that he let her die. He didn't kill her.

I haven't watched the whole thing. I missed a lot of the early stuff because it was too close to home for me.

But I think he's redeemable, but I don't think he will be. I don't think he wants to be. I don't think he could be happy redeemed.

I think the cancer cut loose some fundamental filters that most people operate under. Which could have been a good thing. But I think once he'd discarded that, he has slowly progressed to this point where he's living as he chooses, and I can't see him cleaning up and being content, even if it was possible.

ita, not sure if that was to me but I am agreeing with you.

I don't want to see him redeemed. Jesse maybe. Or yes, I suppose. I normally love a redemption story, but it has to feel earned.

I'd be curious to map out Walt 's contact with death and see how he has escalated to killing Mike. He started out killing drug dealers in self defense. It seems to me that he has become slowly desensitized to it.

I'm only disagreeing with -t's use of the word "kill".

I think there's a point where the killing became "proactive" self defence, and that was another quantum leap for him. When it's not people trying to kill you right now or currently executing a contract on you...I think the law views you differently at this point too, right?

I thought about it a lot when it happened and decided that, in my mind, he killed her, but I can't remember my reasoning. That if he hadn't been there she wouldn't have been on her back or something, but I forget the details of exactly what happened.

I did not have that "Oh, no, now you've done it" reaction to him killing Mike. I do think that the realization he had that he could have gotten the names from Lydia will be problematic for his rationalizations.

Yeah, I think there's definitely a shift in what the law considers okay. But I also know that in that kind of environment of violence, "proactive self defense" can totally be a real thing. Maybe not justifiable, but also understandable.

My student's cousin who was killed, was told, don't talk or we'll kill you. There would certainly have been a moment, after she'd talked, where the threat was totally in force, where if she could have killed them first, I would have felt for her decision, even though I suspect legally she couldn't have gone after them.

I think it's interesting that he still has to have rationalizations at this point. It speaks to where he is in his mind, even as slim as those are and are going to continue to get.

Watching Walt rationalize his actions and try to cajole the people around him into doing the same is such a revealing glimpse into his dark subconscious.

I watched the pilot last night (my cable sucks y'all. SyFy did not have good digital quality) and it was an interesting transformation of Walt during the pilot. He was kind of weak, frustrated and milquetoast prior to his diagnosis. then after he decided "fuck it, I'm only going to be around for 2 years, let's make some meth", he became a bit of a badass. Fucking up the teenagers picking on his son - of course after he had a hissy fit in front of his car washer boss.

he also was sexually aroused by his new lease on life and his wife commented on it.

I think as a viewer, I am supposed to read that Walt's new attitude is a result of him taking control (as much as he can) of what happens to him and his family. He was painted as quite emasculated at the beginning - he submitted to everyone and didn't have anyone's respect.

He finally felt in control when he effectively dealt with the people trying to rob him and fucked with his son's bullies.

I obviously don't know exactly what will come next but he was a different Walt from the beginning of the ep. You can already see he really likes having control.

Yeah, personally, I was surprised by how dramatic a change we saw in Walt in the pilot alone. I was like, what is there left in his journey?

...oh god i'm sorry i didn't know.