why aren't I sleeping?

I was up before 5. My continued consciousness is ... disturbing.

You don't have proximity (or lack thereof) issues?

I am back in SoCal several times a year minimum for things that require actually face time. But internet banking and I am happy most of the time. I don't like actual humans anyway. I rarely went into the actual branches when I lived there.

Except I did tuck one check in with my checkbook and forgot to deposit it. A couple of months ago. Good thing I am flying back on Saturday.

Wow, some of those stockings are gorgeous. I especially like these.

eta: except for the weird red photoshop mark on her arm. Why is there a weird red photoshop mark on her arm?

I am not sleeping, but that is because my sleep cycle is all seriously fucked up. However, I am going to the doctor tomorrow so hopefully all will be well after that. I don't really want to go, on account of I'm feeling some better, but my SO's nurse friends are getting all irritated at me and say the fatigue sounds like it might be pneumonia to them, so he's forcing me to go. Okay, not forcing, I asked to go about a week ago, but kept chickening out. I hate going to doctors. They're going to charge me a lot of money. But then, staying out of work is costing me a lot of money (indirectly), so I guess I'd better quit screwing around.

I am not shopping for stockings, though with my awakeness. I am shopping for my parents' new house, which is equally fun.

Doctor good. Feeling better, even better.

ZOMG, sleepies might have just shown up. I am so glad to see those guys.

I am on facebook (for work). How will we find each other, though? I don't know people's names, or last names. Well, if you know mine, you can friend me and I'll figure them out.

Meanwhile, I'm taking my beer, because none of you people even care that my baby turned 7 today. I'll put you out on the streets. Bitch bitch bitch.

Okay, I totally can't believe he is 7! How did that happen? I hope he had a great birthday.

I was thinking all this yesterday, but failed to post. Which is amazing to me since I got all hurt last year that no one remembered Ellie's first birthday. (June 4, btw in case anyone wants to write it down so I don't get all hurt and sad this year) That's the problem with this place - it's so validating that when you expect it and it's not there, it is extra sad.

This is why Nilly is so helpful! I'll always remember Ellie's birthday - we were at a block party, and my mom was visiting, and your mom called me!

Well, that's what I finally realized - there are a ton of birthdays here all the time.

I didn't know you were at a block party - your neighborhood seems so cool. I miss that - we had that in NC also.

Stephanie, Nilly "Natter 45: Smooth as Billy Dee Williams." Jun 5, 2006 7:27:23 am PDT

So, like y'all already know, everything *is* my fault.

Boy, is it raining here.

Thanks, everyone.

And thanks, Stephanie. I didn't expect people to remember, because I wasn't a Buffista when my children were born.

But I mentioned and nobody said anything, so then I mentioned it again.

And I don't care what you say, Nilly. None of the above was your fault.