I'm home!!!!! I'm not in pain, exactly -- I'm very very VERY SORE and very VERY VERY STIFF.

The pain that was shooting down my leg seems to be gone, but my foot is still numb. My surgeon says that's normal, because my nerve root was absolutely squashed by 2 herniated discs. He says the numbness should go away over the next few weeks as the nerve un-squishes (that isn't the medical term for it, but hey).

The surgery went very very quickly (so says the doc and my parents; I was blessedly unconscious) and there's no reason I won't have a complete recovery. The next few days might be tough, with the incision pain (it's at least 3 inches; possibly longer), and the stiffness and soreness.

However. It's done and I'm home and I have last night's Buffy on tape. Yeehaw.

I probably won't be online much today and possibly tomorrow -- that all depends on how I feel and how long my Mom stays (when she's here, I feel like I should talk to her, rather than shun her to talk to my blinvisible friends).

Anyone who has my number is welcome to call me, and, again, when Mom is gone, I'll probably be making lots of doped-up calls to y'all.

Thanks for the good thoughts, prayers, and vibes. I'm going to go out on a limb and say they helped.

(Now, if I may be selfish, vibe me for a fast recovery!)

I have a job interview tomorrow at 9. It would be really easy and fun and I liked the supervisor when I talked to her -- so please send me jobma vibes around then!

Spoke with Steph this evening.

Her back muscles are sore but her leg feels MUCH better. Her foot is still numb but the Doc says not to worry and it should be better soon.

Mostly, though, she sounds wonderful. She's off the painkillers for the first time in weeks and sounds like herself again.

It was weird, hearing her so relieved choked me up.

Surgeons slicing up your friends? = SCARY

Okay Folks. I gave up on the drive, I got 5 hours in and found myself facing 11+ more hours of driving, the funeral and 16 hours+ back and freaked.

There is a rest stop 7 miles from the south end of Iowa whereupon I freaked and could't even sleep on it, I was so wound up.

So I drove back home. I stopped at every rest stop and a couple of gas stations, and I napped in my parked car.

I'm back home. I'm going to sleep, examine my options, see if I can get a flight still and do a one day thing, or say "argh!" and make my peace without a service. My brother would understand.

Sometimes you have to look at what you are doing and have the wherewithal to say "this is a bad idea" and turn back. I realized the only thing keeping me going forward was stubbornness. Not a good enough reason.

I might even miss tha funeral, but he isn't there anyway. What he was is now gone, and I need to deal with that.

May cheers resound! My sister Nora (who posts in Atlantic Canadians as RahRah, but hasn't ventured out yet) has just been accepted into the Bachelor of Education program at her university. Hooray!

I will be dark all weekend. I am taking a short trip to Florida.

For all Chicago area 'istas:

NoiseDesign will be in town the weekend of April 26-27. We're looking to arrange some sort of dinner/drinks get together. Let me know if you're interested, which day works best, if you prefer aftn. or evening... that sort of thing. I'm also open to suggestions as to where this shindig (with an option on hootenanny) might take place. Profile addy is good.

On a related note, Fri. April 25, we will be attending the show I currently have running at Apple Tree Theatre. I'm probably already at my limit on comps for the night, but feel free to join us at the show.

It looks like work is moving back into a busy period, so I'm going to be going dim for a few weeks, or at least keep vampire hours. Since I'll be skimming a lot more, anyone who needs to discuss F2F plans, or Laista Buffy finale party plans, or anything else, please email me at my profile address.

If there are any istas in the San Diego area, I'm heading down there tonight and will be there through Monday morning. I'll be looking for all sorts of reasons to get away from my family, anyone interested in meeting up for coffee/drinks/lunch/dinner/chewing on glass/watching grass grow/etc, let me know. Profile addy works.

Hi all,

I got some sleep last night.

12 hours straight.

Woke up when my sister phoned to say the funeral was starting soon. She was going to tape it for me. I wonder if I'll ever watch it. I hope she got footage of the 21-shot salute.

I'm going to plant two apple trees in my back yard in tribute to my brother, since I can't make it.