Okay Folks. I gave up on the drive, I got 5 hours in and found myself facing 11+ more hours of driving, the funeral and 16 hours+ back and freaked.
There is a rest stop 7 miles from the south end of Iowa whereupon I freaked and could't even sleep on it, I was so wound up.
So I drove back home. I stopped at every rest stop and a couple of gas stations, and I napped in my parked car.
I'm back home. I'm going to sleep, examine my options, see if I can get a flight still and do a one day thing, or say "argh!" and make my peace without a service. My brother would understand.
Sometimes you have to look at what you are doing and have the wherewithal to say "this is a bad idea" and turn back. I realized the only thing keeping me going forward was stubbornness. Not a good enough reason.
I might even miss tha funeral, but he isn't there anyway. What he was is now gone, and I need to deal with that.
May cheers resound! My sister Nora (who posts in Atlantic Canadians as RahRah, but hasn't ventured out yet) has just been accepted into the Bachelor of Education program at her university. Hooray!
I will be dark all weekend. I am taking a short trip to Florida.
For all Chicago area 'istas:
NoiseDesign will be in town the weekend of April 26-27. We're looking to arrange some sort of dinner/drinks get together. Let me know if you're interested, which day works best, if you prefer aftn. or evening... that sort of thing. I'm also open to suggestions as to where this shindig (with an option on hootenanny) might take place. Profile addy is good.
On a related note, Fri. April 25, we will be attending the show I currently have running at Apple Tree Theatre. I'm probably already at my limit on comps for the night, but feel free to join us at the show.
It looks like work is moving back into a busy period, so I'm going to be going dim for a few weeks, or at least keep vampire hours. Since I'll be skimming a lot more, anyone who needs to discuss F2F plans, or Laista Buffy finale party plans, or anything else, please email me at my profile address.
If there are any istas in the San Diego area, I'm heading down there tonight and will be there through Monday morning. I'll be looking for all sorts of reasons to get away from my family, anyone interested in meeting up for coffee/drinks/lunch/dinner/chewing on glass/watching grass grow/etc, let me know. Profile addy works.
Hi all,
I got some sleep last night.
12 hours straight.
Woke up when my sister phoned to say the funeral was starting soon. She was going to tape it for me. I wonder if I'll ever watch it. I hope she got footage of the 21-shot salute.
I'm going to plant two apple trees in my back yard in tribute to my brother, since I can't make it.
Going grey for a while because our hard drive needs to be replaced.
sobbing.
Got a phone call while I was home for Easter. Mr Heather's boss died early this morning. He was 35.
The Grapevine was the first place in Dallas where I ever felt like I was at home. Richard made us feel like family, and he took care of us like we were his own.
I'm not sure how much I'll be around. The crawfish boil is next weekend and we're all still going to try to make it happen, so I may be dark while I help out.
RIP Richard F.
At 3:00, Central Time, I have an interview with the dean of the grad school program I'm applying to.
Vast amounts of vibes would be appreciated.