See how I'm not punching him? I think I've grown.

Mal ,'Shindig'


Buffista Fic: It Could Be Plot Bunnies  

Where the Buffistas let their fanfic creative juices flow. May contain erotica.


deborah grabien - Sep 30, 2003 10:22:17 am PDT #6904 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

I can't do Dru for more than a few lines of dialogue, but that one was a vignette, and her voice? Not needed.

I have a tendency to make Buffy a bit too decisive when I write her - her uberslayertude comes out for some reason. Spike I can do, GIles I can do forever.

Must have a shot at Wesley, someday, but Plei gives the Best. Wes. Ever.


erikaj - Oct 01, 2003 6:25:56 pm PDT #6905 of 10001
Always Anti-fascist!

Re-vision of Kay meets Ripper. When they got out of the women's room a man was waiting...a man so attractive that Kay watched him, slouched against the fence and thought "Lucky fence."
"Be cool, for Chrissake," she said, under her breath.

Joyce said "Ripper, this is Kay. We bonded in the bathroom."

"Joyce, luv, I like the sound of that." he said with a glint in his eye.

"Not bondage...bonding. Don't you think of anything but sex?"
For a minute, Kay thinks "This is not a problem for me," so strongly she thinks she must have said it. Or he could read it in her eyes. She wants to die. But it gets worse...she fucking giggles. She, who has heard and responded to the worst filth perps can spew is fucking giggling. And she kind of likes it, except it makes her stupid. And feel like her breasts are too small. "Oh, hi," she says, and feels like a boring dork.

"Kay's a cop," Joyce says.
"Awfully pretty for a fascist." he says and lights a cigarette.

She knows they would be great together, that somebody as hung-up as Joyce probably only does basic vanilla stuff since she can't say the words. But instead she says "Those things will kill you," and her voice shakes.
" You have to die of something. I'll take the risk. Speaking of..."

"Yes?" Maybe she should have made him work harder for it. Did this make her a slut? That's what they would say in the old neighborhood, her stealing a friend's guy out in the open like this. That's why she can't even look at Robin Felton...it makes her too real. "Do you have any handcuffs in that lot there?" he asked, indicating her purse.

"Yeah. Why?"

"Me and Joyce might want to borrow them. For a lark, you know?"

"You and Joyce. Um, I don't know. If anything happens, I've got to pay for those...the city charges us."
"Bastards!" Even his swearing was sexy. Bahstards.

"Tell me about it."

"You know," he said, coming in closer. "I'd consider it a great personal favor." He touches her hand and she feels a little thrill. "A favor from a close, personal friend." And he kisses her hand, like a guy in a movie.
"I'd like to be your...friend. But I need them back."


deborah grabien - Oct 01, 2003 8:49:56 pm PDT #6906 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

And she kind of likes it, except it makes her stupid. And feel like her breasts are too small.

Oh, DAMN, erika.


Cindy - Oct 02, 2003 1:24:28 am PDT #6907 of 10001
Nobody

oh yeah, erika. Wow. I'm going to start pitching erika's Homicide to the networks. I am. Beautiful.

Cindy, in re stuttering - I stutter when I actually speak, but not when I'm thinking (or singing). So Tara probably wouldn't stutter when thinking to herself, or imagining conversations with someone.

toddson, thank you. Tara was actually going to be telling someone who was to be revealed later, but I don't know about it now, because 3 characters have volunteered to be the one she's talking to, and they're getting greedy and making my head hurt.

I have a tendency to make Buffy a bit too decisive when I write her - her uberslayertude comes out for some reason. Spike I can do, GIles I can do forever.

I try to remember a few things about Buffy: She loves ice skating. Her daddy broke her heart, and it may never mend. She has butterflies on her bedroom wall. She'd have died to keep her mom alive. She keeps her own counsel. She so wanted to be popular/fit in at Sunnydale, for all of 45 minutes. When she saw Cordelia trash Willow, she lost all taste for it. She takes every human victim's death as an affront to God and man. Every man she's ever given herself to--save Riley--has been gone, when she's woken in the morning. Because she knows it's her fault that Angelus killed Jenny, and Xander lost his eye (and the like), she thinks it's her fault that: Spike assaulted her, Angel lost his soul, Tara died, and Willow went evil. She's wrong, of course, but she'll never believe otherwise. She loves Dawn so much, that she pulls away from her, to protect her.


juliana - Oct 02, 2003 4:55:49 am PDT #6908 of 10001
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…

Because she knows it's her fault that Angelus killed Jenny, and Xander lost his eye (and the like), she thinks it's her fault that: Spike assaulted her, Angel lost his soul, Tara died, and Willow went evil. She's wrong, of course, but she'll never believe otherwise.

Cindy, ya gotta stop breaking my heart so early in the morning....


deborah grabien - Oct 02, 2003 7:44:53 am PDT #6909 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

Cindy, Buffy also has the ultimate - the knowledge that she can't walk away from the job, it's in her blood, it's ordained.

I've never seen her more Uberslayer than when she told Giles that she wasn't going to kill her sister - who wasn't in fact her sister at all - and that the last thing Dawn would see would be Buffy protecting her.

The defenses snap in. It was the big reason - among a raft of others - that I never bought the Spike-assault thing. Yes, I've heard and listened to all the reasoning - she was conflicted, she was out of it, she was back from the dead and heartbroken and exhausted and feeling guilty about Spike to begin with - but he would never have got one third as far as he did. Joss spent the first five, six years drawing a picture of Slayer skills as completely atavistic and instinctive: she can't turn them on and off. She'd have bounced him off the ceiling a nanosecond after he ignored her "no." She couldn't not. If she can turn it on and off, then what was Joss doing, the first 5.5 seasons?

So yes, the girl had butterflies on her walls, and sometimes in the pit of her stomach. But she clicks things off deliberately and from choice when the thing she has no choice over - the Slayer instinct - kicks in.

And alas for me writing her, that part of her is the part that I identify with and that made her my Tuesday night girl. I was never one of the Willow women, and Faith, who might be me if I was twenty years younger and a lot less self-loving, I always wanted to feed beef stew and tell to chill out and like herself.

For me, it was always about Buffy. There was that other aspect of her, you see, and the one that really gets me: she was the strong tough completely capable one, the one everyone turns to without a blink, Class Protector, everyone's protector, expecting her to know what to do, know the answers, solve the problem, take down the baddie, go mano a mano with all their worst nightmares. Their own personal goddess, in fact.

Thing is, once you accept goddess status, you get cheated out of a few things: the ability to fail gracefully, the ability to back away, the right to just be human occasionally.

It can shorten your life, and make you very cold sometimes - not cold toward others, just a chilly place inside where your longevity lives. But the thing is, if you're actually good at it? You don't want to let go of it. It feels right, devouring as it is.

She had that, all that. I so totally get it. Been there.

So she comes out Uber, when I write her.


erikaj - Oct 02, 2003 9:40:42 am PDT #6910 of 10001
Always Anti-fascist!

I don't get Buffy. I've never been chosen for shit. For good or ill.(unless you believe that whole new age your soul picks your body thing, which I probably don't.) She's great, but I can't get inside of it. Deb, did Ripper sound ok? Since you guys went to school together and everything?


deborah grabien - Oct 02, 2003 9:44:02 am PDT #6911 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

Ripper was very close to perfect. You got the "right, then, I'm not an Oxford ponce, I'm from Stepney Comprehensive and I'm the bloke who gets hard down the pub and then waits for you in the alley after Chelsea beats Manchester City one-nil" swagger down cold.


erikaj - Oct 02, 2003 9:51:33 am PDT #6912 of 10001
Always Anti-fascist!

Heh. And it's all bullshit.("I've never been to England. But I kind of like the Beatles.." (It's bullshit for Ripper too, but he's not ready to deal just yet...to busy pretending to "keep it real") Guess my All English All The Time music playlist while writing that helped. Go me!


deborah grabien - Oct 02, 2003 10:03:46 am PDT #6913 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

It's complete bullshit for Rupert Giles. Ripper is just the Mister Hyde thing he slips on when his well-bred overeducated Watcher persona gets too heavy for him.