Here's my flashfic. I was asked to write either Spike/Joyce or Spike/Dawn. I chose the former. It takes place during Checkpoint.
I call it
Checkpoint - SHE
You've been told that he's evil - but he worked with your daughter to save the world, and that same daughter trusts him with your life and her sister's life.
You've been told that he's a soulless demon - but he likes marshmallows in his cocoa, and Passions on TV.
You've been told that he's incapable of human feeling - but he's cried for love, and thanked you kindly for your hospitality.
There is a disconnect between what you've seen and what you've been told. A chasm between what you've observed of his nature and what others assure you is true. It's hard to know what to believe. Do you trust your instinct or do you trust what you've been told? Hearsay, your mind whispers, and you know that you've already made your choice. You know that in the end you have to go with your gut. And your gut tells you that he can give you what you need.
So you leave your youngest sleeping on a chair with the snowy flicker of afternoon soaps casting light and shadow on her sweet face and you follow the smell of cigarette smoke deeper into the ground.
He's leaning against a stone wall, all bleach and denim and rebellion. He's so strong, so vital, so alive - and though this last is not entirely accurate, it is true as these things go.
You ask him, casually, what it's like, what it feels like. And he looks at you with startled eyes and he talks like Ripper, and that sends shivers of remembrance through you, tightening some things and loosening others.
He tells of running through the night, of dancing for hours, of lifting and moving and leaping with strength and stamina so mighty it still amazes him. He talks about smelling her perfume from miles away, of hearing her laugh from two stories down, of being able to see every exquisite inch of her white skin in the dark. He says that he feels everything, that he was never truly alive until he had died.
It sounds so wonderful. It sounds like everything you want to be. Strong. Healthy. Eternal.
And so you move closer, until you're leaning on the wall beside him, breathing in the smell of smoke and whisky and leather, and you ask him if he will make you strong and healthy and eternal.
He pushes up against you and licks at your neck. He tells you that he will make you strong and healthy and eternal. He tells you that soon you will dance for hours.
But you're already dancing. You're moving with him and against him in a rhythm as old as time and you can feel the blood pumping through your heart and into your arteries and out your veins and you wonder if you will miss it.
He's grinding against you and you're grinding against him and someone is moaning but it doesn't matter who. You haven't felt like this since you were a teenager with your back pressed against the hood of a car and another British boy pressed against your breasts and your thighs. You feel alive. You haven't felt that way for months, for years. You want more.
You open your mouth under his and roll your tongues together, thrusting in concert with your hips. He moves his head and trails soft, wet kisses down your throat. He nibbles and licks and sucks at the juncture of your neck and shoulder. The thrusts of his hips and his tongue now quicken to match the throbbing of your pulse and he's growling with need.