Timelies all!
Happy Birthday Kat!
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Timelies all!
Happy Birthday Kat!
Official word from a Catholic: Bread and wine are a weekly sacrament; some dim sum and a bit of champagne for the first time in months and months and months are not only not guilt-worthy, they're practically a moral obligation.
Which is not to belittle the nastiness of the body-image demons or the frustration of feeling the difference after one day's indulgence (or the shittiness of being normal sized and living in the heart of Skinnyland). It's just... dammit, pleasures ought to be pleasurable. You've got months of dietary goodness under your now-rather-smaller belt, and unless you ate enough dim sum to gain back the entire 35+ pounds, the BIDs should declare a birthday truce and lay off you for a single day.
Er, why is catholicism anti-champagne? Or is it just pro-guilt?
just pro-guilt.
It's weird, right?
I have worked really hard to get to this size and yet when I look in the mirror I don't look different. Yet I know I am different looking. I can do a one-armed handstand and I have relearned how to do a backhandspring and every month or so when I slip one more size, I know I'm smaller. But it doesn't connect to what I see in the mirror.
sometimes I think I'm an eating disorder that lacks self-control or willpower.
Considering that champagne was invented by a Catholic monk (thank you, Dom Perignon!), I'm guessing it's the guilt. Although at all the Irish Catholic weddings I remember attending in my family, the sparkly drink of choice was Asti Spumante. I didn't try champagne until after college, when I fell in love with the stuff one NYE.
That is one hell of an accomplishment, Kat! Congratulations and enjoy whatever you can allow yourself to.
Wow. I haven't seen you in person in a long time Kat, and well, wow. I know your (general) eyes don't always register what is really there, but you *are* smaller than the last time I saw you. You look really good.
You've done fantastic work, and I've been blown away by your willpower again and again (even if I haven't commented often enough)! So whatever demon that is talking, it not only needs to stop beating you up Right The Hell Now, it's also just plain wrong.
Thanks Aimee and amych. I know. Body image stuff is of the very most boring. So I'll shut up now and instead think of how great it is to have survived another trip around the sun. Which is true and to think of next years big 35th plans which include a passport, geysers and whales....all good things.
I can do a one-armed handstand and I have relearned how to do a backhandspring
You know, the backhandspring looks so filled with joy, it just makes me smile.
(Happy birthday, by the way!)