WooHoo, K-Bug!

Thanks, Andi. I wouldn't be surprised if sugar withdrawal has something to do with this (although I also had motivational problems intermittently before. It was why my shrink upped the Celexa from 20 to 40 mg. And I started getting headaches from the 40 mg. and went back down to 20.)

I'm thinking this might be a "perfect storm" of things. (1) I'm out of shape. When you get really out of shape, it's hard to get over the hump because you don't have any energy anymore. You'd feel better eventually if you exercised but in the short term you feel worse. (2) sugar withdrawal (3) a bit of depression from a personal situation. Minor, but it's there. (4) Still the very ugly reality of my living situation and how hard it is to deal with. When I was employed, I wasn't here all the time. Now I am. (5) Out of shapeness, not having CMT appointments, etc. added up to increased RSI pain, which was what initially put me in bed.

Thanks for your concern, folks. It means a lot. I'll probably go to bed in an hour or two because the Krewe thing is in the late morning in SF and also because I need to turn my hours around. I'll no doubt feel better if I make more of an effort to get out in the sunshine and take a walk. (I was up this morning and saw light through the window, but didn't go out and actually soak it up.)

Just got back from stocking up on sugar-free candies at Long's. Two of the normal things that were on my shopping list happened to be on special so they were entirely sold out, darnit. Not a big deal usually but I'm trying to save gas by not going on as many errands. Especially redundant errands like shopping at a number of different groceries. Spotted Diet Coke with Splenda. I can't figure out whether that's available everywhere now or whether we're a test market. Probably the former since they usually text products in God's Armpit, MO. I haven't made up my mind about it yet. I definitely prefer Splenda to Aspartame as a lesser of two evils. The taste is closer to regular Coke taste in that it has the sort of orange oil warmth that regular Coke classically has. But it's also got the sort of "tinny" or "hollow" taste that I associate with articificial sweeteners. All topnotes and aftertaste with no middle.

Aimee, I'm sorry for the yuck you had to go through at work. Today, I had to tell my manager that a temp we took on a couple of weeks ago just wasn't working out and we should let him go. It was depressing. I feel like I stepped on a puppy.

I'm so relieved the end of the month is over. While I like the money I get from overtime, the extra hours required are getting exhausting. At least I got my annual review (that was due back in November) today and it was quite an improvement over the previous year's. Yay.

Spidra, I'm glad you got ahold of a friend. Do you have an IM at all? A lot of us are on YahooIM or AIM and we're always glad to hop on to chat and we're always happy to help keep the boogey-man at bay.

Thanks. I'm spidraw on AIM but I usually only go on in a targeted way. Chatting is much harder on my hands than posting on a board.

Congrats on the good review!

I'm going to try putting some music on and doing some dishes.

Hec, will you tell JZ she has email/JZ, you have email.

(cross posted with Natter)

Despite the bad, you seem aware of what is going on and able to make some steps. Is there a place near by that you can get tabuloui? a very small amount of something carbish, but very chewy and full of fiber might give you just enough- but a small amount that you can control, migh t be an option.

and RSI are tireing - i don't think it is out of shape as much as you think it is. I saw you perform - there is some core strength there- but RSI are exhausting. 10 minutes of weed pulling could be all you can handle , because you are ill. and Even if allergies don't bother you, the sudden warmth is htrowing so much stuff in the air - that itching is not surpiseing - and if your RSI is in your arms - you got enough blood circulating that the new blood in arms can cause itching.

and in news of me,I am sunburned. I forgot to put my face stuff on and there is lots of real sun . burned chest and face.

Argh. I hope you have some good vitamin E lotion to apply. I know that I have to remember to wear a babushka with my kokoshnik tomorrow. My hair is thinning enough that my scalp gets burned easily.

Despite the bad, you seem aware of what is going on and able to make some steps.

Yeah, this is where the anti-depressants help, I think. Not that I didn't have any self-awareness before. Psychotherapy has helped me develop that. But I think that when I went out in to the yard and saw what a mess it is (the weeds aren't the only thing. Workmen have dumped all kinds of stuff around and things are damaged.... ) then went inside and saw what a sty it is inside, I would have broken down and cried until I went to sleep. The anti-deps keep me in this bizarre sort of removed state of mind. So i feel it a little but not anywhere near as much as I would have. It's helpful but also a little disturbing.

I'm going to cut up some tomatoes and have them with balsamic vinegar.

I just finished putting away the clean dishes and appliance parts. I may have to make some msbelle stylee (and how much do I admire her productivity?) posts just listing the accomplishments I manage.

I hope you feel better and heal soon, beth.

I'm going to cut up some tomatoes and have them with balsamic vinegar

yum

so far I am just warm, but not too warm. Sadly, I will probbably peel.

I like post what I have accomplished here. i don't think it is terribly exciting, so if there is no response, big deal. and if there is one - it is positive reenforcement , so cool

Well, be careful. I can't emphasize enough how helpful vitamin E is in cases like this. I'm extremely fair-skinned so I'm experienced with sunburns. I had a second degree burn on my chest once. Huge blister. My grandma the nurse pricked a vitamin E caplet and applied the oil as close to the burn as she could get it. I managed to heal without a scar. Taking it orally is also helpful if you're afraid to get the vitamin E oil on you (it is awfully sticky). You can also just use a lotion that has lots of vitamin E in it.

I rarely burn out here - there is usually enough sun year round that my face and arms have color all year - I usually do burn once - on my sholders, or back , or chest, because I forget. Once it has happened I am better with the sun screen ( and hats) and the parts of me that don't get enough sun protection don't burn as easily. I was surpised today. I've only had 5 or 6 bad burns- meaning My skin was way to sensitve fo r even a sheet to touch - but I have never blistered. I do have some Burt's bee's coconut creme with vit E - that can go on my chest - but my face is just gonna have to deal with my normal lotions- anything to thick , or too scent , or just becuse today is Tuesday , will make my face break out.