Damn, this is really hard. I tried calling a friend who I thought might be willing to come over on a Friday night and...help me function. She wasn't home. I went out in the garden, which is completely overrun with weeds due to the interminable rain we had, and pulled weeds for about 10 min. I got very tired from that. And my arms are now itchy. And I feel like going straight back to bed again. I wonder if I've just hit so rock bottom in terms of fitness that that's the problem? I definitely find myself overwhelmed looking around the house and garden and seeing what a fucking sty I live in. Mostly not due to me. Good thing I'm on anti-deps because I'm having a bit of trouble handling this as is. I can't imagine what it'd be like off.

Spidra! Pay attention.

You're spiraling down. You know that, right? You need to engage your Emergency Response Systems (your friends network, including me) to make sure you get contact, and get out of the house and not descend into a sleep cycle o' doom and inevitable chronic depression.

Trust me. You're on the lip of a vortex now.

We'll get together next week. Are you available Tuesday morning?

Also? Break the housecleaning down into tiny little manageable chunks. Do the dishes. Or vacuum only the living room. Or pick the books up. Little steps.

Tep, I didn't get it. Odd. Try ladygrey9 at yahoo dot com, maybe?

Try ladygrey9 at yahoo dot com, maybe?

K. Give me a minute....

Thanks, Hec. I just called another friend to see if she was available. She's out with her boyfriend right now but she's going to accompany me to the Krewe function tomorrow.

And thanks for offering to be a contact. Tuesday I'll be going to my second interview at UC and I'm sure I'll have no problem getting my ass to that.

Spidra, it's just occurred to me that you may not be getting enough carbs for your system. The first time I tried a low-carb diet, I misunderstood the induction diet instructions, and ended up getting something like 4 or 5 grams of carbs total, for a few days, instead of 20g total. I got really, really run down as my body had wayyyyyy too little fuel to run on. Maybe you could increase your carbs by a serving or two, choosing whole grains or leafy greens to see if that helps your energy level.

Got it, Tep, and thanks!

Home from day 1 of K-Bug's softball tournament. They won both games - the first one was an extra inning game in which K-Bug hit the game winning run. Woooo and hooooo.

Tomorrow we get a rematch against the only team to beat us so far this season.

They are the ones who played two games - why am I so tired?

WooHoo, K-Bug!