How do you distinguish a victim of martyr complex from a "I regret that I have but one life to give" hero?

It's a matter of PR. To me, they are different ways of seeing the same basic act.

I guess that might be why the term makes me twitchy; most human behavior is intended to elicit a response, and usually that intention is hidden.

Me as well. It is applying intention where we don't really know the intention.

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but it has helped.

I am so glad to hear this, Spidra.

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While they moderated the lows, they also cut off the highs

I'm just as glad to lose the highs, because the highs weren't necessarily healthy highs. It's not just a matter of feeling happy or good about things, but about what you do while you're feeling that way. At least it is for me. My highs often lead to risky behavior and overspending, so I'm just as happy that the highs have been toned down to something where I can enjoy things and not feel guilty for my behavior later. So, I honestly don't feel I'm missing anything at all.

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Ah, see I'm not bipolar at all. Undrugged, I rarely have highs and when I do they're not at all manic. But not being able to fully enjoy the human experience of falling in love was a definite loss to me. But the biggest reason I went off Effexor was the habituation. You start to need more and more to get the same effect. It didn't make sense to me to plug up the serotonin reuptake spots if your body just adjusts to that. I wanted to try to stimulate more serotonin production. If I were bipolar, I'd have a very different opinion about the highs being cut off. I feel somewhat muffled now, it's true. I'm happy I have this new job but on top of my "don't count your chickens until they've hatched" approach, I know I'm less perky about it than I'd be if I weren't drugged up. But it's worth it in this case. At least until this particular phase of my life is moved through.

Thanks, Cass.

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It didn't make sense to me to plug up the serotonin reuptake spots if your body just adjusts to that.

From what I've heard, that can be a problem with just about any AD. I've had to have my doctor increase my Celexa over the past few months, so I'm kind of worried about that, too.

As far as I know, I'm not bipolar, I'm just perimenopausal, which is close enough! You would not believe the mood swings that you can go through. Ugh. My doctor doesn't prescribe HRT, so she put me on ADs instead. I still have hot flashes and stuff, but not the mood swings and I can actually sleep at night, so I'm a very happy camper.

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Those Pirates of the Caribbean M&Ms sound irrisistible. There was a coming soon type sign up at my local Walgreens for White Choco Pearl M&Ms that were PotC related.

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Offtopic

The DVR is returned. For Basic Cable I do not need a cable box or special remote, so one of the upside of teh downgrade is less clutter in the house. WHEE!

While out, I had dim sum with friends which was really nice, then did some shopping. I got a new pair of dressy open toed balck shoes, a navy and bright green sundress, a green tee, a brown print skirt, an olive green long linen skirt, and a print wrap top. I am so into green right now, orange too, but could not find clothes in the right orange.

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Home again, home again...

Sophia, I hope you're taking care of your wounds, and sorry about the trauma in general.

Congrats on the house, amych!!

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I sympathize with the perimenopausal. I'm going through that, too. Again, no bad behavior with highs. Few highs at all. But the lows were horrible. The hormonal imbalance was taking my existing depression and worsening it as well as making me more angry and impulsive. My nurse practitioner put me on GABA and herbal PMS supplements, which helped a lot. I've only taken Celexa for 6 months now so I haven't noticed habituation yet. Nothing like Effexor, anyway. With Effexor, you get dizzy if you haven't had enough.

I'm in favor of whatever works for you, Sail. I'm glad you've found something you like.

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I think I missed congratulating amych on her house! Congrats! Happy b-day (belated) to Sean!

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