Preview for the next episode of Project Runway is up.

I'm not disputing your statement, msbelle. It's just not what I'm talking about.

Pretty windy out here, which just makes me wonder about fire, but it isn't scary hot, so maybe we'll be okay.

One of my medical practicioners suggested I keep a headache diary. I tried it on LJ. Amazing how quickly I bored of it.

In other news, all my tests at the neurologist looked good. Now I just have to keep poking the head of the instructors to call the GP, and soon. And find a prophylactic medication, dammit. Uh, not the head instructor. That's more a me thing.

That is awful. extreme temps of any kind at work are just unacceptable.

apparently TPTB agree with you, because they've closed the office.

I know the holidays are over, but now is the time to think of your decorations for NEXT year.

Oh my word, Robin. I cannot complete a thought. I'd forgotten about that website. I used to read the blog once in a while. It's pretty funny. I love that the church is named for Ned.

ok, here's how it goes in my head... I don't deserve him. - - -if he seems to want you then doesn't he deserve a shot at that relationship? And where do one's self-image and denial issues trump someone else's ability to make a sound decision.

I see how they are different things but they seem all twisted together and no sense making.

It's not about anyone else's decision. If I don't feel comfortable in a relationship, what right does anyone else have to instigate or prolong it? It's me. I can get over myself, or not. But he doesn't get to make the call. It's mine alone. Hell, he's welcome to help me get to the point where I feel I deserve it. But he has no dibs on me.

I totally see that. I think I am just too much of an ego person. I don't get not thinking I deserve something. It's like saying I am not good enough.

I was watching Black Books over the weekend. And I have to say, Bernard Black is my customer service idol.

I was just happy to see Cristina deliver a couple of well-earned smackdowns to McDreamy. He deflated nicely when the reminders of their relative status in the hospital didn't slow her down for a second .

It sounds more dramatic than it really is, msbelle. I think it's clear that on GA, Cristina's not holding up her end of the relationship with sincerity. And I think I can describe that as her not deserving the relationship, because she's faking it to get the bits she wants. Would I do that? No. Never. But I totally understand why she can't be all there for him. That's where I identify. I'm also "not good enough" for George, because I would hurt him despite/because of his niceness. It's not an absolute judgement--it's related to the dynamic at hand.

My raw knuckles keep faking me out for thinking I've spilt ketchup on my hands. Gross.

Speaking of ketchup, I complimented the cafeteria manager on there finally being ketchup bottles with ketchup in them, and I swear he told me he was docking his employees $20 if they didn't keep them stocked.

This place is weird.