ok, here's how it goes in my head... I don't deserve him. - - -if he seems to want you then doesn't he deserve a shot at that relationship? And where do one's self-image and denial issues trump someone else's ability to make a sound decision.

I see how they are different things but they seem all twisted together and no sense making.

It's not about anyone else's decision. If I don't feel comfortable in a relationship, what right does anyone else have to instigate or prolong it? It's me. I can get over myself, or not. But he doesn't get to make the call. It's mine alone. Hell, he's welcome to help me get to the point where I feel I deserve it. But he has no dibs on me.

I totally see that. I think I am just too much of an ego person. I don't get not thinking I deserve something. It's like saying I am not good enough.

I was watching Black Books over the weekend. And I have to say, Bernard Black is my customer service idol.

I was just happy to see Cristina deliver a couple of well-earned smackdowns to McDreamy. He deflated nicely when the reminders of their relative status in the hospital didn't slow her down for a second .

It sounds more dramatic than it really is, msbelle. I think it's clear that on GA, Cristina's not holding up her end of the relationship with sincerity. And I think I can describe that as her not deserving the relationship, because she's faking it to get the bits she wants. Would I do that? No. Never. But I totally understand why she can't be all there for him. That's where I identify. I'm also "not good enough" for George, because I would hurt him despite/because of his niceness. It's not an absolute judgement--it's related to the dynamic at hand.

My raw knuckles keep faking me out for thinking I've spilt ketchup on my hands. Gross.

Speaking of ketchup, I complimented the cafeteria manager on there finally being ketchup bottles with ketchup in them, and I swear he told me he was docking his employees $20 if they didn't keep them stocked.

This place is weird.

Matt, I totally agree. She rocks.

Killer Bunny
The culture war is no match for the White House Easter Egg Roll.

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Still Searching: First Santa, now the Easter Bunny. With conservatives still recuperating from the stress of saving Christmas, the Weekly Standard reports that gay and lesbian family groups are planning to use the White House Easter Egg Roll to spotlight their cause. A spokesperson for the Family Pride Coalition says, "It's important for our families to be seen participating in all aspects of American life." The plan sounds like the famous "Trojan Bunny" scene from Monty Python and the Holy Grail—except that this time, the organizers might remember to put people inside.

Conservatives consider this a threat to one of their most cherished traditions: politicizing religious holidays. According to the Associated Press, some conservatives want to retaliate by mobilizing straight families "to outnumber gay families at the egg roll" on April 17.

Like most Americans, I don't have an egg in this hunt. The war on Christmas and the war over Easter pale in comparison to more pressing holy wars that should keep us up at night. But I have some advice for gay, lesbian, and conservative activists who want to politicize the White House Easter Egg Roll: You'd better get in line now.

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If Christmas at the White House is a rare window of peace and forgiveness, the Easter Egg Roll brings out more familiar Washington traits: the ruthless struggle for power, the clash of insatiable egos, the frustration of gridlock, the temptation of bribery. And that's just to get in. Families who make it past the palace gates witness another display of traditional values: a mad dash to get ahead and trample anyone in the way.

Conservatives consider this a threat to one of their most cherished traditions: politicizing religious holidays.

Meanwhile, I'll stand outside the grounds with a sign saying, "Put the Oestra back in Easter!"

I have a question about "Desperate Housewives." Can someone explain to me re: Gabby...

if the Sister was really having sex with Carlos