I don't want to seem horrible but I just want her to have a good death too now.
That's not horrible, that's merciful.
On my seventh birthday, I wanted a toy fire truck, and I didn't get it, and you were real nice about it, and then the house next door burnt down, and then real firetrucks came, and for years I thought you set the fire for me. And if you did, you can tell me!
Xander ,'Same Time, Same Place'
Spike's Bitches 28: For the Safety of Puppies...and Christmas!
[NAFDA] Spike-centric discussion. Lusty, lewd (only occasionally crude), risque (and frisque), bawdy (Oh, lawdy!), flirty ('cuz we're purty), raunchy talk inside. Caveat lector.
Gudanov - Dec 29, 2005 4:52:26 pm PST #2206 of 10001
Coding and Sleeping
Spidra Webster - Dec 29, 2005 4:52:38 pm PST #2207 of 10001
I wish I could just go somewhere to get flensed but none of the whaling ships near me take Medicare.
Cass, that's not terrible. That's compassionate, given the circumstances. I hope that if it's your grandmother's time to go that she goes as painlessly as possible.
Cass - Dec 29, 2005 4:53:49 pm PST #2208 of 10001
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.
Thank you.
I mean, I think I know that. And I believe it but, right now, it just feels so hard.
juliana - Dec 29, 2005 4:54:20 pm PST #2209 of 10001
I’d be lying if I didn’t say that I miss them all tonight…
{{{{Cass}}}}
JZ - Dec 29, 2005 4:55:42 pm PST #2210 of 10001
See? I gave everybody here an opportunity to tell me what a bad person I am and nobody did, because I fuckin' rule.
What everyone else said. Merciful. I'm so sorry, for all of you.
I am going up tomorrow to sit through the night with her so stepmom (I call her mom but I figured I should be clearer here) can get some sleep.
You're a good, good soul.
sarameg - Dec 29, 2005 4:57:47 pm PST #2211 of 10001
It IS hard. I've been where you are. It's never easy to reconcile wishing for death. In the long run, I think ends up feeling healthy. In the short run, it really feels awful.
Anne W. - Dec 29, 2005 5:08:28 pm PST #2212 of 10001
The lost sheep grow teeth, forsake their lambs, and lie with the lions.
{{{Cass}}}
Cass - Dec 29, 2005 5:10:19 pm PST #2213 of 10001
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.
It really does feel awful right now, even being moral (in my eyes) and kind. I want to try and do right by her. So tonight I cry my eyes out and tomorrow I go take care of my family.
SuziQ - Dec 29, 2005 5:16:22 pm PST #2214 of 10001
Back tattoos of the mother is that you are absolutely right - Ame
{{{cass}}}
We heard from my assistant. Her doc has confirmed that she does indeed have cancer of the uterus that has spread in the abdominal cavity. She doesn't know the stage or extent yet (and I'm cancer-clueless). She doesn't see the oncologist until next Tuesday.
She is in her late 50's/early 60's, I think. She took 7 months to come back from carpal tunnel surgery on both wrists. I'm thinking that even a best case scenario doesn't look too good here....but, as I said, I'm cancer-clueless.
Lilty Cash - Dec 29, 2005 5:16:25 pm PST #2215 of 10001
"You see? THAT's what they want. Love, and a bit with a dog."
(((Cass)))