Simon ,'Objects In Space'
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Jake was induced and still wouldn't budge after three hours of pushing. At that point, I didn't even feel like a failure, I was just so glad to get the whole thing over with.
Turned out, Em just positioned her head wrong so it's all her fault and I can use this later as leverage.
Such a good idea.
Crap, me too. Um...crap.
Aimee, I tried the Press link, and it's got the same error message, too.
Thanks, luv. And thanks for fixing the Press post, too. MWAH!
So, what? I was the only woman out there with pure horrifying back labour, basically yelling "OUCH MOTHERFUCKER C-SECTION GET THIS DEMON SPAWN THE HELL OUT ALREADY!"?
I can honestly say it never occurred to me to feel like a failure. I was all about the "fuck you I want this damned thing out and dealing on its own now" head space.
For me, it was, "This is something I am SUPPOSED TO BE ABLE TO DO! My body was MADE FOR THIS!" I felt much the same way when I couldn't get pregnant to begin with. Being a mother was the ONE thing I always knew I'd be. And to at first, not be able to achieve it and then, to not achieve it in the way I had planned and planned, broke my heart, at the time.
Yup, Aimee, that's about where I was at, too. Heck, I didn't even get to push. I went in at 2 cm and after 13 hours induced labor was still at 2 cm. The body, she did not want to accomodate at all. Not the baby's fault. Just mine being stubborn.
Now, I have no desire to have a VBAC. Scheduled C-Sections from here on out. Appeals to my anal retentive side.