Lorne: You know what they say about people who need people. Connor: They're the luckiest people in the world. Lorne: You been sneaking peeks at my Streisand collection again, Kiddo? Connor: Just kinda popped out.

'Time Bomb'


The Great Write Way, Chapter Two: Twice upon a time...  

A place for Buffistas to discuss, beta and otherwise deal and dish on their non-fan fiction projects.


Aims - Sep 22, 2005 9:22:22 am PDT #4208 of 10001
Shit's all sorts of different now.

Crap, me too. Um...crap.


Amy - Sep 22, 2005 9:22:46 am PDT #4209 of 10001
Because books.

Aimee, I tried the Press link, and it's got the same error message, too.


Aims - Sep 22, 2005 9:23:05 am PDT #4210 of 10001
Shit's all sorts of different now.

[link]

Here's the plain ol' affiliate link. Search for Chrissy K. McVay. "Souls of the North Wind"


§ ita § - Sep 22, 2005 9:23:14 am PDT #4211 of 10001
Well not canonically, no, but this is transformative fiction.

Affiliate link directly to book.


Aims - Sep 22, 2005 9:26:01 am PDT #4212 of 10001
Shit's all sorts of different now.

Thanks, luv. And thanks for fixing the Press post, too. MWAH!


deborah grabien - Sep 22, 2005 9:29:48 am PDT #4213 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

So, what? I was the only woman out there with pure horrifying back labour, basically yelling "OUCH MOTHERFUCKER C-SECTION GET THIS DEMON SPAWN THE HELL OUT ALREADY!"?

I can honestly say it never occurred to me to feel like a failure. I was all about the "fuck you I want this damned thing out and dealing on its own now" head space.


Aims - Sep 22, 2005 9:32:44 am PDT #4214 of 10001
Shit's all sorts of different now.

For me, it was, "This is something I am SUPPOSED TO BE ABLE TO DO! My body was MADE FOR THIS!" I felt much the same way when I couldn't get pregnant to begin with. Being a mother was the ONE thing I always knew I'd be. And to at first, not be able to achieve it and then, to not achieve it in the way I had planned and planned, broke my heart, at the time.


SailAweigh - Sep 22, 2005 9:37:25 am PDT #4215 of 10001
Nana korobi, ya oki. (Fall down seven times, stand up eight.) ~Yuzuru Hanyu/Japanese proverb

Yup, Aimee, that's about where I was at, too. Heck, I didn't even get to push. I went in at 2 cm and after 13 hours induced labor was still at 2 cm. The body, she did not want to accomodate at all. Not the baby's fault. Just mine being stubborn.


Aims - Sep 22, 2005 9:39:05 am PDT #4216 of 10001
Shit's all sorts of different now.

Now, I have no desire to have a VBAC. Scheduled C-Sections from here on out. Appeals to my anal retentive side.


deborah grabien - Sep 22, 2005 9:44:37 am PDT #4217 of 10001
It really doesn't matter. It's just an opinion. Don't worry about it. Not worth the hassle.

I am decidedly unnatural. NO maternal leanings.

Did it once, wasn't supposed to be able to do it at all, was sick and in physical pain (traction every morning for the back issue) the entire pregnancy, hated the delivery. Hated the entire process. The kid was cool, but nothing would have induced me to do it twice.

Had I ever had the faintest inclination toward doing it again, I would have been on the phone with the various adoption experts so fast, a superhero on crystal meth wouldn't have been able to catch up.