Why aren't we in bed?

Why aren't we in bed?

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OH! Yes. It is rather late. heh.

Good night double-entendre Andi.

Andi, mayhap you and Daniel would like to discuss that backchannel? It's probably because of the $800 U-Haul would like to extort from you.

Tee hee.

Timelies of the nitie-nite variety, all.

ETA: Yeah, MFNlaw. Yeah. Stupid not-being-in-the-same-time-zone.

Gronk.

I can't get to sleep. Stupid internal clock. I need to get up at 8:30 tomorrow. I got up at 7:15 today, and 8:00 yesterday. And yet, by brain keeps insisting that no, staying up until 2 will be a good idea this time.

WindSparrow already has a new tag!

not giving beathen hugs, but rather the secret handshake of the underappreciated office manager.

At my annual review, I was told that I needed to keep on my boss about doing things he was putting off. To remind him and ask if he'd done them. While I don't like playing mommy, I am the assistant, so ok fine.

So today, there's a client who needed to be called about some merch increasing in value, which meant it wouldn't be shipped for a while. There was a meeting about something else entirely, and boss had put off most calls until after the meeting because most of them had to do with the meeting. I reminded him to call the client and he got testy "I told you I'm making calls after the meeting Heather."

To his credit, he did thank me for reminding him before I left and said he saw that I was trying to do what he asked.

Anyone still up?

Anyone still up?

Hoping you're asleep by now...poor ND.

I'm up. I need to shower, but first I'm savoring my cup of coffee. Hopefully today I'll actually make it to all of my classes. It's not snowing, so they shouldn't close campus. Yay!

I saw my therapist at group last night, and she was surprised that I was taking three classes. I thought we had talked about it, but I guess we hadn't (her memory is MUCH better than mine, so I default to her on these things). She wants me to bring in all of the workload to my next appointment so we can decide if I should drop one. Probably a good plan.

Anne, I'm glad you're getting away for a few days. And an early Happy Birthday to you! Have a wonderful trip!

{{{Nora}}} We've talked about this in person, but I'll say some things again. I think that you're being so amazingly proactive by making this decision...I was so proud of you at Emily's party. I know this must be difficult for you, but you are handling it so well. It really sounds like you thought through your decision to drink last night, and I don't think it's an indication of anything except that you were enjoying a couple of your favorite tastes. I'm sorry Tom is annoyed with you, and I hope it passes soon. But, remember, I'm really proud of you.

Not a fun thing to carry around, espcially knowing it will never go away.

Indeed. I keep thinking that there's some point where it will become moot, but then I realize this is the rest of my life, this fear, and it gets depressing.

Always wondering if you're justifying or not? I can so relate, sweetie.

Oh my God, this is so the crux of it. Thank you for putting it so succinctly!

I know this must be difficult for you, but you are handling it so well.

The funny thing is, it's actually not that difficult. Once I retrain my brain to enjoy the taste of cranberry juice and sparkling water or ginger ale and lime, it's been smooth sailing. It's just a project to have a yummy non-alcoholic drink in my hand rather than an alcoholic one, so I can whet my whistle and have fun the whole night long without getting drunk or hungover. Last night actually felt like I was still doing the same thing, just that two of the drinks I was enjoying happened to have alcohol in them.

But, thanks for the supportive words, guys, it helps a lot. One of the things about this whole ACOA mess is that I feel like I can't ever fully trust my own thought processes on the subject, because I may be justifying things, I may be falling into old patterns, etc. I should probably get in some group therapy or ACOA action, to help with this, but thank you guys for providing other persepectives in the interim.