I can't wait to read the Spoiler thread, actually. I may end up ignoring the other threads in favor of it.

Hi guys. I mostly lurk around here because I don't have lots of time to keep up with so many posts!

I am just hoping that wherever I end up seeing the last episode *sigh* tonight that the recording works. I have this fear that we'll all get together and they'll start the tape or the TIVO and it won't work! But then that means that it won't be the end, right (wishful thinking)? But then again, Mercury goes direct today so it should all be ok.

Anyway, I'm wearing black today. I feel sorta silly wearing black to mourn the end of my favorite show, but more sad than silly so I'm doing it anyway. I feel like next Tuesday I'll be running around in circles wondering what to do!

My apologies on not catching the other spoiler in the WashPost article. I've seen it so many places, I thought everyone had heard it. Silly me.

I tend to avoid spoilery places. So except for that article, I'm pretty much unspoiled for tonight's ep. Except for the part where Anya is turned into a mouse and runs up Xander's pants leg.

• This spoiler is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any actual spoiler, living or dead, is coincidental.

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Tuesdays are going to seem like Fridays without Firefly, now.

Only much, much worse.

Tuesdays are going to seem like Fridays without Firefly, now.

Only much, much worse.

My scant consolation is that the neighborhood movie theatre (shows indie and art films) is $4.50 admission all day every Tuesday, and while Buffy is in new eps, I always missed the chance to see good movies for cheap. And now I can.

Like I said, scant consolation.

nisaa -

I am feeling the same way. I don't want to think about next Tuesday either. I've been a useless bitch all day long... moping and sighing with the other addicts around my office.

I never knew how much this show meant to me until I woke up yesterday morning aware that this was the week of the 20th and that from here on life would be a little different.

Ok, so that might sound crazy, but here's the backfill. I never watched Buffy until I moved into my current apartment, with smonster, and she got me started on the show - this would be S3. Even after Smonster moved abroad and i remained at the Ghetto Palace, I stayed with Buffy. Buffy saw me through some lonely weeks; I always knew I had plans Tuesdays at 8. And then Smonster moved back and Buffy was as Buffy was and we had our ritual again. Plus, the advent of DVD! It's been heaven.... But now I am moving to California, and Buffy is ending, and I will have no more Tuesdays with Smonster. A time is drawing to a close. In a way, tonights Buffy finale is a finale for a part of my life.

It seems fitting that I finally had my first dream with characters from the show last Sunday night.

I still haven't watched the last series of DS9 episodes, just reading the reviews was almost too much. I just hate watching it and realizing, "Oh, that's the last time Giles will every say, 'Oh dear,'" or "That's the last joke Xander's going to make," or "Those are the last ugly shoes that Buffy will ever wear," - it's like watching someone dying slowly.

I never knew how much this show meant to me until I woke up yesterday morning aware that this was the week of the 20th and that from here on life would be a little different.

It doesn't sound crazy. I had the same thing with X-Files, which of course, had gone so far downhill by the time it ended that it had emerged on the other side of the earth, but that was a ten-year relationship. I'd been watching it since before I met my husband. It was a constant.

I don't think Buffy's hit me yet. It's not going to be pretty when it does.

Does tonight's episode run long?

Ouise is making me all teary with the whitefont courtesy. Nilly's quotes in Quotable made me teary. Everything is making me teary. I never expected to be this way.

Spoiler-free here. I turned last week's promo off in the middle. I now forget what I saw that made me do that.

De-lurking on this most angsty day to say that the second hour of NPR's "Talk of the Nation" will be discussing BtVS. For those of you who missed it already in your corner of the universe, I think the show will be on the NPR Web site (www.npr.org) later this evening. But then will it — or anything else — matter anymore? Sigh.

Before I go back to being mute, I just want to thank the Buffistas for enhancing my Buffy experience with their amusing yet intelligent discourse on the best. show. ever.

And let's all remember to take a moment.