That said, the shoes were pretty cute.

It just occurred to me that we never did find out what was in the note she left him after the best night of his life.

"Dippity-Do Extra Hold".

The only thing that assuages my profound sadness that I only found the Buffistas five months ago is the fact that I found you.

I came late to the show, S2 reruns, start of S3. Came waaaay late to the Buffistas party.

But even in five months, many of you here have made a difference. And I'm glad.

Does anyone else feel kinda bad about the Summers house? There's not a copper pipe refit in the world that can fix that kind of damage.

a story with all the clarity of Umberto Eco and the direction of a blind gopher

sniff

That's almost as beautiful as the SN dialogue.

Yes, I feel bad about the house. The tilework on the sideboard was gorgeous.

Does anyone else feel kinda bad about the Summers house?

I kinda felt bad about the cemetery and that Dawn and Buffy wouldn't have anywhere to visit Joyce. Same for Tara if she was buried there.

It just occurred to me that we never did find out what was in the note she left him after the best night of his life.

Dear Spike,

Look, the fate of the world could be in my hands (*again*, which, I don't mind telling you, is getting really old), and I just needed one. good. night's. sleep. But --

YOU SNORE!!!

--B. Summers

Yes! The cemetery, too! I thought, "Poor Joyce, dropped into whatever the heck that sinkhole went into."

The sex is really a separate issue. Though, were I forced to link them, I would probably argue that in Entropy, Buffy told Spike she wouldn't sleep with him because she didn't love him, so if she did sleep with him, that means she loves him.

I think she loves him. I don't think she's (necessarily) in love with him, or rather, knows she's not in a healthy/right place to be thinking about "in-love" stuff.

I think she (was?) in love with Angel. I don't necessarily know that she loved him. That may make no sense to anyone who isn't in my my-kids-were-nuts-today brain.

At any rate though, it's why the cookie dough thing worked for me. It's an apt (and appropriately Buffy-corny) analogy.

When I can think, I'm going to go through some episodes and pull out examples of where and when I think Buffy indicated to Spike (in a way that wasn't an anvil for us, but would have been clear to him - in a between-them sort of way) that she wasn't ready. It's not only limited to End of Days.

I can't even analyze the episode yet. I didn't take notes (which is the first time in a long time) and when I start to think of the episode, I flash immediately to the four standing face to face, Giles splintering off with the WTTH/TH echo, Willow going off and then Xander and Buffy's hand squeeze. And again I break.

And to whomever noted upstream that that was a perfect reverse order of how they met, and found it significant, I'd just just like to say that I did, too. I meant to remember to note it last night, but I forgot in all the tears.

This episode made me happy that the show is over. It ended it exactly (if we're not counting nits, and I'm not) how I wanted it to end. It hit all the right emotional notes, and it was what the series deserved.