Nora and I are watching, we missed the first bit. Everyone looks so great. The stories are so lovely. It is amazing to see beloved people talk live that I haven’t for years. Everyone so is perfectly themself.

Plei, tell Tickybox the vest looked great.

I don't know why I spend so much time trying to anticipate how I'll feel about things. I'm not right very often. It was a lot of emotion for me...I didn't handle it very...neatly, I guess. But I'm glad I did get to share my feeling with JZ, before.

I watched as much as I could live. I was up at Mom's because E was visiting... I actually ended up sitting on the couch watching with my earbuds on surrounded by my family and confusing them when I occasionally laughed out loud. They understood the tears more.

But then I had to say good bye and we had to come home (and there is spotty internet connection on the way home). When I checked in again Matilda was speaking. I'm going to watch the rest later. Matilda is very much the child of her parents.

Nora and I went back and watched the slide show. David had just started talking when we had to leave for dinner. I assembled a JZ-inspired outfit in a few minutes to wear in her honor.

It was lovely to see everyone; I'm sorry that I'm having to skip dinner, but my brain is just *done*.

I got to hug Emmett but did not get a chance to introduce myself to EM. I was very, very glad she was there, though.

Too many feelings to process right now, but I'm ok. It's just been a lot.

I'm sorry that I couldn't be there in more than spirit(Also tired of saying that every couple of days about something...feel like a futurama head in a jar behind that.) But I had messy feels, better you didn't see that, I think.

It was so lovely, and so good to see so many of my favorite faces. Thanks so much for organizing the livestream, David.

I just finished watching the whole gathering, and it was just beautiful. Thank you to Lukas for making that livestream happen, David.

And seeing everyone's faces is amazing.

It was so lovely, and so good to see so many of my favorite faces. Thanks so much for organizing the livestream, David.

I just finished watching the whole gathering, and it was just beautiful. Thank you to Lukas for making that livestream happen, David.

I was so glad he was able to pull it together. At some point while I was putting together the collage boards of pictures my brain just glazed over. "I don't even know what I'm doing anymore!" Just lost in the weeds of all the details.

But everything came together. It was really so lovely.

And seeing everyone's faces is amazing.

There was a strange parallel element to the event where it was a Memorial for Jacqueline and at the same time a Buffista F2F and I hadn't seen so many people for 5+ years.

So I managed to catch up with that element at the dinner after that Juliana organized. And that was concentrated Buffista fun.

But now I'm exhausted and ready to sleep deep.

Thank you all so much. My heart is full tonight. I feel so lucky to know you, know this place, and to be able to be in SF for the memorial. Thank you, and I love you, and seeing about 30 of you F2F for the first time in 17 years is truly amazing. David, Juliana, megan - thank you so much for organizing today.

And for those of you who are still around and not leaving early tomorrow, Jess and I will meet tomorrow in Fisherman's Wharf. Let us know if you'd like to join.