Yeah, I took an Ambien last night and still woke up at 6 and checked. And then I couldn't get back to sleep. Had my cry, now at numb, called out of work, climbing back in bed.
And boys -- let's watch the swearing.
Mayor ,'Chosen'
Natter 78: I might need to watch some Buffy for inspiration
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Dana - Nov 06, 2024 5:58:04 am PST #3298 of 3468
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."
Steph L. - Nov 06, 2024 6:22:43 am PST #3299 of 3468
the hardest to learn / was the least complicated
I doubled my Ativan dose to get to sleep (my regular dose is very low, so doubling it is still well within a normal dose range), and then when I woke up at 4 to pee, checked the news and saw it wasn't looking good, I took another 1/2 an Ativan to ensure I'd get back to sleep. Whatever's still in my system is probably why I'm more or less on an even keel right now. Like, ragey and scared, but in a chill way? We'll see what happens when the drugs wear off.
And my regular therapy appointment is on Wednesdays, so I've got that to shore me up later. (I guess we'll shift from talking about one bigoted narcissist [my dad] to the more politically prominent bigoted narcissist.) I do have to work, but I can't guarantee I'll finish anything today.
Also, it feels like a migraine is trying to start, which honestly the lesser problem.
JenP - Nov 06, 2024 6:32:44 am PST #3300 of 3468
We just got leave to "take/do/be whatever you need to today" from work. Would that I knew what that was.
Cass - Nov 06, 2024 6:33:22 am PST #3301 of 3468
Bob's learned to live with tragedy, but he knows that this tragedy is one that won't ever leave him or get better.
I feel sick.
lisah - Nov 06, 2024 6:33:50 am PST #3302 of 3468
Punishingly Intricate
The CTO of my company just said he doesn’t expect anyone to work today and that anyone who voted for “those fucking nazis” is fired
Steph L. - Nov 06, 2024 6:37:30 am PST #3303 of 3468
the hardest to learn / was the least complicated
The CTO of my company just said he doesn’t expect anyone to work today and that anyone who voted for “those fucking nazis” is fired
Good CTO.
dcp - Nov 06, 2024 6:43:09 am PST #3304 of 3468
The more I learn, the more I realize how little I know.
What is really making me sad is that voter turnout in my county was only 71.33%
Less than I was hoping. Less than I was expecting, even.
JenP - Nov 06, 2024 6:43:27 am PST #3305 of 3468
The CTO of my company just said he doesn’t expect anyone to work today and that anyone who voted for “those fucking nazis” is fired
Leadership I can get behind.
Jessica - Nov 06, 2024 6:57:00 am PST #3306 of 3468
If I want to become a cloud of bats, does each bat need a separate vaccination?
I don't feel worse than in 2016, because I was totally blindsided by those results. For this election, I knew Trump winning was possible, but didn't seem likely. So I feel like shit, and I'm angry, and really bitter. Like, of fucking COURSE this country is a bunch of Christofascist misogynist transphobic homophobic racist science-denying bigots.
Yep, all of this. I am absolutely gutted, but at least I was semi-prepared to feel this way?
Some good news: the salted caramel I made from scratch to go on top of the apple pie bars I stress-baked yesterday? It fucking ROCKS. So if anyone thinks a caramel latte, hot chocolate, or just straight-up drinking caramel through a straw will help in any way, come over to my house and I'll hook you up..
Gudanov - Nov 06, 2024 6:58:20 am PST #3307 of 3468
Coding and Sleeping
Some good news: the salted caramel I made from scratch to go on top of the apple pie bars I stress-baked yesterday? It fucking ROCKS.
That does sound really good.