What is really making me sad is that voter turnout in my county was only 71.33%

Less than I was hoping. Less than I was expecting, even.

The CTO of my company just said he doesn’t expect anyone to work today and that anyone who voted for “those fucking nazis” is fired

Leadership I can get behind.

I don't feel worse than in 2016, because I was totally blindsided by those results. For this election, I knew Trump winning was possible, but didn't seem likely. So I feel like shit, and I'm angry, and really bitter. Like, of fucking COURSE this country is a bunch of Christofascist misogynist transphobic homophobic racist science-denying bigots.

Yep, all of this. I am absolutely gutted, but at least I was semi-prepared to feel this way?

Some good news: the salted caramel I made from scratch to go on top of the apple pie bars I stress-baked yesterday? It fucking ROCKS. So if anyone thinks a caramel latte, hot chocolate, or just straight-up drinking caramel through a straw will help in any way, come over to my house and I'll hook you up..

Some good news: the salted caramel I made from scratch to go on top of the apple pie bars I stress-baked yesterday? It fucking ROCKS.

That does sound really good.

I have no meds, I just have to bare brain it through the day. I was hoping being at work would at least make me feel distracted/useful, but my stomach is so upset that I'm taking antacids.

Some good news: the salted caramel I made from scratch to go on top of the apple pie bars I stress-baked yesterday? It fucking ROCKS.

At a family party this weekend, one person brought apple dip made with a layer of cream cheese topped by a layer of salted caramel, topped by pecan halves. Very tasty! Someone else brought a pumpkin pie. Your local genius (that would be me) scooped up some of that caramel-y goodness and put it on my slice of pie, and then put whipped cream on top. Believe me when I tell you the angels sang.

So if anyone thinks a caramel latte, hot chocolate, or just straight-up drinking caramel through a straw will help in any way, come over to my house and I'll hook you up..

[checking plane fare]

Comfort food sounds good. I canceled my nail appointment. Trying to work. Just know I am virtually hugging all of you, tight.

So if anyone thinks a caramel latte, hot chocolate, or just straight-up drinking caramel through a straw will help in any way, come over to my house and I'll hook you up..

I mean, a bit of a drive, but I've driven farther for less...

So . I was looking at CNN's comparison of the exit polls for 2016, 2020, and 2024.

Trump lost the white male college educated vote. He also lost support among white males without a college education. In fact the only white demo in terms of gender and education he stayed steady with was white women with no college education.

It wasn't enough to change the election but I think it's an interesting statistic.

I also think there are going to be a lot of people who will be shocked when the leopards don't just eat their faces but rip them to shreds. And some who will say they are glad it's the leopard they voted for and not the Commie woman.

Right now I'm hoping that somehow Kennedy and Musk don't actually get any jobs in the administration. Its a very faint hope.

Man, I don't even have the energy to say "What the hell" this time.

I'm at work, which is actually keeping me from falling into a spiral, but at some point I'm going to have to work through my emotions, which is not something I'm good at.

I think more than anger, or even disgust, I'm just feeling bewilderment. Like, really? Even with the Electoral College and the gerrymandering and the Dying Of Whiteness bunch and the "I work three jobs and am exhausted" factor, REALLY? You gave it to that guy after he told you to your face what he is?

I need to say, I am more grateful than ever for this community. Years after Buffy ended, you've been there, holding each other up, even if I don't contribute as much as I'd like.

(And I want to be around more, because we need all the connections we can find to get through whatever's next.)

Jessica, homemade salted caramel sounds wonderful, and I'm just sorry I'm living in the State of Error so far away from it.