David my problem is long term vs short term rewards. Would avoiding this potato chip and the next one help me be not in pain someday? Sure. But would it make my mouth and my dopamine receptors happy right NOW? Yes.

I am so used to Kaiser just telling me when to get shots the idea of a pharmacy never occurred to me. Huh. I still would like to get it through Kaiser just to have it on record with everything else, but it's probably easily arranged. I can't find any way to do it on the app, maybe just drop in. Hm.

Typing with my laptop up on the desk rather than on my lap is killing my arms, btw. This is why I have a standup desk, tbh, because the keyboard tray can go low enough to be comfortable for me while sitting with my feet on the floor (I have also tried elevating my seat to raise my arms to the correct height for the desk and using a footrest but hopping up onto the chair makes me feel like I am taking my life into my hands) and the docking station is not talking to that whole system and there has been no answer to my plea via Help Ticket yet. Woes.

The one other person who is here today is in his office with the door shut but I can still hear him talking on the phone, so that is helping me remember to be quiet...

Update from PG&E is that they expect to restore power by 5pm, so I guess I will be in the office all day. Well, at least this is a relatively easy option for me ergonomics notwithstanding

Ach, I wish I could cook for him and make him a pile of all protein/no carb meals.

I do this every day for myself, and for his meals. But he supplements with junk. I've been in ketosis so long now that I couldn't care less about chips and pizza when I have cheese and bacon on my list. Even at the movies I might have 10 pieces of his popcorn, if any, and he polishes off the whole large bag. He knows he has to do something, but just won't commit.

I try to keep up on my immunizations - I had the DTP shot a couple of years ago, both shingles shots, flu shot, COVID vaccine. I have - twice - had the pneumonia shot, but both times it left me feeling like I had the flu for two weeks, so I'm not going to repeat that. Last time the doctor talked me into having the shot, but I think my experience means not going through that again. (I actually had measles, mumps and chicken pox, so I'm immune for life, seemingly ... which always shocks the young doctors. That I had the diseases, since I had them before there were any vaccines. I do remember polio and smallpox shots, but seemingly no longer necessary.)

I called KP and I have to get the shingles vaccine ordered for me by my doctor, but that can all be done via message, apparently. I think my PCP was changed on me at some point, the name they mentioned wasn't one I recognized. I have not been to actually see my doctor in, um, some time I don't even remember. I suppose I ought to do that at some point. 2022 perhaps.

Not due for TDAP until next year, that's nice to know.

KP helpfully advised me while I was on hold that they are giving 3rd shots of the COVID vaccine to immunocompromised people. That is also nice to know. I plan to get a booster when/if that is advised in general - heard on the radio that there's a chance a third shot could potentially give people who don't have naturally acquired antibodies something like super-immunity, which is an exciting prospect. I do think I had a mild case way back at the beginning of lock-down, but at the time there were not enough tests available to make testing me seem necessary, and by the time I gave blood and got checked for antibodies that came up negative, so my odds of super-immunity seem low

Ok y’all the more I think on it the less I trust this person who did my hair yesterday to fix it in a way I’d like, Tuesday. The pink is very inconsistent. I’m worried that (a) if I try to fade it out it’ll turn peach, and (b) if I go back the person will just dye it darker fuchsia (which I don’t want) to try to cover it more thoroughly. (It’s not just the color—the “haircut” part was not great and they managed to bleach spots on the sides where it was shaved, and had to grab some brown dye to cover that—which I’ve done but I’m not a professional and am working on my own head which limits vision and movement?)

Going back Tuesday is free. I already paid (and tipped) yesterday. Do I just cancel Tuesday and say fuck it? Do I go and hope they can fix and not make worse?

This is why I do my own haircolor. (I have a stylist I trust completely and who I'm sure would do a great job, but...a box of Colorista bleach + tube of dye from Sally's is less than $30. Even if the salon dye job looks great, it's not going to look 10x as great.)

That's me, too. Plus, I know what kind of color I want, and I don't have to try to put it in words to someone else. (Red. No, redder. FAKE red. 40s nail polish red. With a hint of purple. RED.)

meara, I'd go, but I'd be super-clear upfront about what you do and do not want, and ask them if they think they can do that. If they're iffy, then bail.

Definitely go and give them a chance to fix it. Do you have pics you can bring to show them what you want?

meara, sorry you didn't get the amazing pink hair you deserve. I have no idea how to dye my own hair, so I hope I can find someone new who won't fuck it up when I have a chance to get mine colored again.

I think I can get the flu shot at my doctor's office, but they just want me to walk in during lab hours and won't let me schedule it, which I find aggravating. I need to go to the hardware store to replace the light bulbs in my kitchen, so perhaps I will pop in on the way and get that done today since I'm on call for jury service all next week.

I haven't been following a low carb diet, but I have been trying a lower carb diet rather than an all of the carbs diet. I definitely haven't been strict about it because I don't see much point in the endeavor if I can't maintain it long-term, but I've lost about 8-9 pounds so far.

Someone tell me to work.

Jesus Christ, I can't even get myself to work. Or, rather, I'm procrastinating on work with other work. I even disassembled the vacuum cleaner yesterday because I couldn't remember when I last cleaned the filters. And yet I'm still not working on 2022 business planning, probably because of the overwhelming feeling that I have no idea what I'm doing.