Timelies all!

It's going to be interesting feeding Mr. S during Passover this year. He's gotten rather picky, and most of the stuff he will eat has bread or pasta in it. (He'd happily eat pizza, grilled cheese and mac-n-cheese every day if we let him)

Hey all. I have been grieving Amy and I feel bad about it, because I know that many of you were closer to her and I should have been here supporting you, but I just didn't have the spoons. It was a weighted-blanket-and-couch weekend.

So hugs to everyone now, in properly socially distanced and non-space invasive form.

There's no place for "should" in grieving. We all knew and loved her, and it's hitting us in different ways. That's just the way of it. I've spent the last few days sort of numb and foggy, just wanting to sleep all the time. (I also got my second shot on Sunday, which was a bit of yay in the midst of gloom, but also made me sleepy.) Listening to her playlist helped. I was able to dance a bit and that helped me access some happy memories.

Listening to the playlist right now, AIFG.

Absolutely do not "should" on yourself, Volans.

I know, but you know...also the playlist does help.

(He'd happily eat pizza, grilled cheese and mac-n-cheese every day if we let him)

Yeah, me too bud.

because I know that many of you were closer to her

Volans I have had some of the same feelings, but I've also been grieving and listening to the playlists. I think part of the sting for me is that while it was limited I loved the times I had with Amy and I just assumed that over the years there would be more of those times, and so I find that I'm occupied with is thinking about the lost future opportunities. Such a wonderful person.

Matt, it’s a Prius, so I dunno. It wasn’t the big big battery obviously, that’s a gagillion dollars, but I’m guessing the regular battery is also more? I could look at the invoice.

I think part of the sting for me is that while it was limited I loved the times I had with Amy and I just assumed that over the years there would be more of those times, and so I find that I'm occupied with is thinking about the lost future opportunities. Such a wonderful person.

Very much this. Socially-distanced hugs and head nods for everyone.

In CA vaccination news, M & I both got the first Pfizer jab today, thanks to our neighbor who has been working hard to get our entire building vaccinated (it's only 10 units, so it's not a massive undertaking, but it's still so kind of her to be on top of the appointment releases). My arm is sore and I'm tired, but that's about it.

We decided to let Peanut go back to school April 12 or whenever her school goes back. At her age, it's less about the learning and more about being able to be with other kids. She needs to regularly interact with someone who isn't us.

Matt, it’s a Prius, so I dunno. 

The small battery was less but still some monies when I had Mom’s. Of course I sold it and all the records. But it was pricey as I recall.

There's no place for "should" in grieving. We all knew and loved her, and it's hitting us in different ways. That's just the way of it.

I still feel like I have, maybe, Buffista second tier in grieving. But we all mourn her. I loved her and I will miss our amyth so much. And I know that my grief 'counts' but so many will miss Amy.

I do hope that new thorough doctor comes up with a good plan. eta: after my one and only massive seizure 7 years ago my neurologist ended up saying that he never could tell me why it happened but he felt confident that it likely wouldn't happen again. I am convinced it was the combo of record level stress, persistent lack of sleep, bad diet, and alcohol that did it. I can't handle the meds so I worked hard on the other factors, and no recurrence. There have been a couple times when I felt things weren't right, and told DH right away and took a day to focus on chilling. At this point I think I got this.

Thank you, Laura. I remember that and have held you as a person to ask if the EEG turns out anything other than bland. Please let it be nothing found there.

I was still sick/recovering from Covid, under-hydrated, undernourished, unmedicated for my thyroid and generally off when I had my big seizures.

I’ve felt mild symptoms since coming home from the hospital but always with warnings and mild issues, no seizures.