I'm realizing this is sort of like planning a wedding but in reverse.

I had Steve's memorial gathering at his sister's home, which was where we had our wedding reception. We all commented that it looked the same. Same people, same combination of laughing and crying.

The food options look amazing. The crostinis and flatbreads are making me hungry. We need to know where people are staying.

So my advice when you're drowning from lack of executive function is to hire somebody to come around and kick your ass into shape.

Literally a key reason I want to make more money. That, and travel. And the fever dream of retiring some day.

I wish I could make the memorial, but I’ll be just back from a visit to NC and I’m going to Savannah in a couple weeks for my uncle’s memorial. Perhaps we can do a live Zoom thing?

Yay for clean bills of health! Colonoscopy is on my list for this year. It will be my first.

Aieeeee I just submitted my resume and cover letter for that job! Calli was a wonderful help. ETA receipt confirmed, would-be boss is reviewing over weekend. I get awesome lesbian contractor vibes from her so far. My people.

I still wear my rings (except when my fingers swell up or something). A friend of my brother's noticed and commented a while back on my sentimentality or steadfastness or whatever but I don't know that it';s a marker of anything in particular, I mean, it's the only actually valuable piece of jewelry I own, not wearing it would be like keeping the good china in the cupboard. OTOH, every time I have to mark that I am single on a form it feels wrong and weird, so there's probably more to it than that but I am not looking too hard at it

Anyway, the menu looks very full of deliciousness. The organic forest salad with mushrooms is catching my eye.

Job~ma, smonster!

Thank you!! It’s not a bump in pay, but I think the benefits and CoL should help balance things out. Not to mention the mental health benefits and chance to reconnect with so many people I miss.

Tomorrow I'm going to a celebration of life/wake for a friend who had a HUGE impact on my life - he was one of the original founders of the national vampire LARP group, and if I hadn't joined, I wouldn't have ended up working at Wizards of the Coast and thus meeting my husband.

However, there's a good chance a former friend who nuked our friendship (a thing he has done to other people, it's a pattern) will probably there. I plan on being cordial and polite to him, but it's going to be interesting to see how he treats me and everyone else he's done this to.

Vibing hard for you smonster!

Oh yes, time to make travel arrangements. I’m trying to figure out the span of dates and hopefully where people are staying. That venue looks so right.

I'm realizing this is sort of like planning a wedding but in reverse.

💯 % this.

Oh, and I have my colonoscopy referral ready to go. My doctor suggested waiting a little bit since my insurance changed at the beginning of year but now I think it’s about time to get scheduling.

I hope it doesn't get too interesting, Atropa. Wakes, in my opinion, do not need extra added drama.

I have been doing the at home test periodically, which I still think is a really weird thing to do/be able to do (not least because of the whole sending biohazards through the mail part), but certainly better than doing the whole icky drink and actual procedure thing. Clean bill of health every time so far.