Just got the call from the breast clinic - BENIGN.

Yay! Boob News You Can Use!

Hell yeah, Susan!

I've been reading but not really posting because work is insane and I'm tired.

My dad was in the hospital over the weekend due to fluid on the lungs, which they had originally diagnosed as pneumonia. He only got the pneumonia diagnosis after my mom made him talk to a triage nurse since he'd been complaining that he couldn't breathe, but he was dragging his feet because he didn't want to get a COPD diagnosis what with being a lifelong smoker. He also needs to talk to his regular doctor about sleep apnea, which he hasn't done yet because his brother said something about CPAP machines potentially causing suffocation??? My uncle is very much not a doctor, y'all.

Anyway. I'm trying very hard to not to follow the "avoidance until things become critical" coping mechanism at play here.

I have been reading a lot lately on how high-masking smart neurodivergent women just FALL THE FUCK APART during perimenopause because all of the coping mechanisms we've been using since puberty were built on a foundation of mostly reliable hormone levels, which, as it turns out, were pretty important for day-to-day functioning.

I'm laughing nervously and taking notes.

Fuck yeah, benign!

Yay Susan! I love Woo Hooters!!!

I have been reading a lot lately on how high-masking smart neurodivergent women just FALL THE FUCK APART during perimenopause because all of the coping mechanisms we've been using since puberty were built on a foundation of mostly reliable hormone levels, which, as it turns out, were pretty important for day-to-day functioning.

I know I already commented on this, but I think it was actually a one-two punch of COVID isolation plus perimenopause. I was really good at peopling. I made a study of people. But, like, I forgot how and then also lost my memory. I am so glad that Laura and David reached out to me, though, because it is helpful being here.

B-9, B-9, yay!!!

In other good news, Alex was reinstated in the Seattle Promise program for spring quarter. Now all we need is for Dylan to come through the current round of layoffs at his Big Tech Company unscathed, and our family can declare victory for the week.

I am so glad that Laura and David reached out to me, though, because it is helpful being here.

You belong here! Much loved and valued.

Alex was reinstated in the Seattle Promise program for spring quarter.

Excellent news!

Susan, lovely to read all the good news this morning. May the good keep coming the rest of the year.

Well done, Long Island voters. Really wish you had paid attention before making us endure Santos. Now we need another dozen or so districts to wake up and get rid of the crazy.

Today may be Valentine's Day to most of the world, but it was my dad's birthday so it is always a special day in my family. DH made me breakfast, which was nice.

Trying to find a cruise to take with my sisters. Yikes, they got pricey!

Susan, Woo Hooters! (Love that.)

Wow, so cool to see so many peeps "posting-in" -- love that, too.

tl;dr--its been a fairly harrowing two weeks involving a friend just finally diagnosed with bipolar.

I am (and he's is) so grateful for an amazing group of friends and a son who are rallying in many ways for him (divorced and lives alone). Day 1 of a step-down partial hospitalizatin program today which looks really good, and he is doing a thousand times better than two weeks ago.

There is so much else, but I will process it with my therapist, who is awesome.

I am just hoping for a day where I can concentrate and be chill while I work today.

Starting with a delicious cup of my new chai tea, effing right.

I have finally woken up enough to realize there is a vase with three red roses on the kitchen table and called TCG to thank him. He must have hidden them in the basement yesterday. And I'm assembling his and ltc's Valentine's gifts while drinking a Amor latte from my local place. I have no memory of what I actually bought either of them but I'm hoping I have enough that I don't have to run out and get anything else.