After a few hours, I start flipping out.

I don't think mine are major, but I do feel like they are getting worse. I keep trying to explain to my husband that we cannot rely on my short-term memory at the moment, but I used to have a really good memory, and I don't think he understands exactly how quickly information flies out of my brain at the moment.

Yes! I don’t have any coping mechanisms for not remembering anything, because I could always remember everything. And people are relying on me.

Twenty years ago my 50 year old boss told me about this and I did not listen.

Twenty years ago my 50 year old boss told me about this and I did not listen.

The number of times I say to myself, "I was not nearly sympathetic enough to my mother," (on this and many other topics) is embarrassing and shame-inducing.

There were many contributors to my um, lapse in control (heh), but one of them was panicking over memory issues. The fact that I could not remember the names of DH's fellow platoon member's four children caused an absolute panic. I mean, I remembered everything, that's what I did. The fact that those kids have kids who probably have kids of their own now didn't lessen the impact of not remembering their names--!

Thanks for checking in, Sophia. Glad you're home, Karl, and glad that your power is back. I'm excited for you about your trip, Shir.

msbelle I'm so sorry about Miley.

I just read the source page on futless--that and Laura's "weather be wack all over" has me giggling.

Things here are pretty okay. We had three days of gale force wind and rain, and several more days of steady rain. As usual PNW spring is sodden, slippy ground. I just hope the water table hangs onto enough to ward off fires this summer.

ETA: Power outs are always inconvenient, no matter how well you plan the backups. I get used to those pretty quickly. But what really gives me the wig is when I open the fridge and *the light doesn't go on!* Something is really wrong with the world when the fridge light doesn't go on when you open the door!

I don’t have any coping mechanisms for not remembering anything

I have learned to:

• Take notes
  
• Take lots of notes
  
• Make lists
  
• Use lists
  
• Put even minor things on my calendar app
  
• Use the "reminders" and "notification" and "alarm" features on my calendar app
• Not try to multi-task
• Do things now, because I might not remember to do things later.

Dcp is me, except I have never had a memory, so that's just how I've coped my entire adult life.

(cf. [link]

How did I not know this? I would absolutely remember having read that. Well, now, I will definitely be using futless. All this time I thought it meant something like aimless, shiftless. I am delighted.

I love the TS boyfriend t-shirts. So delightful making toxic dudes squirm.

Glad West Coasters are hanging in there with the weather. We had widespread flooding during a rainstorm last week but, like, medium for here. And of course it can’t slide anywhere.

Two days from now I get a -t!! Be jealous. I’m sure we will remember to take at least one selfie.

Speaking of, Shir, I’d love to see you again if you feel like coming back to New Orleans. Or to wherever I am at that time. And thank you for sharing about the protests - I personally didn’t know that (am mostly avoiding news) and it is heartening to hear.

I’m actually excited for tomorrow’s parade; Muses is one of my favorites but people go batshit trying to catch a decorated shoe and the crowd intensity freaks me out. I was planning to skip it but a delightful plan has come together and I kind of can’t wait.

Given that I was wishing I could skip Mardi Gras the way I skipped Chrismukkah… it’s nice to be a little excited instead.

So, my ultrasound/biopsy appointment is at 1 PM Pacific tomorrow, so please send healthy boob~ma my way.

I've mostly been coping with the stress OK, though I lost it a bit this morning over a small work thing, cried about it for half an hour (thank God for WFH!), and felt better thereafter. And, frankly, I've eaten a lot of junk food and not got a lot of writing or running or reorganizing my office done like I was off to a good start doing in the first half of January. I just hope that they're able to do the ultrasound-guided biopsy tomorrow, because there's a chance they won't be able to and will have to schedule me for an MRI-guided one instead, and who knows how many more weeks of waiting that will be.

Dangit, another morning run rained out. I thought it was going to be a little drizzle but it's too wet right now. At least not lashing winds and downpour. Just rain. Good for the snowpack, good for the state, bad for my running schedule.

At least I got one in yesterday. My body was getting very out of whack from lack of exercise. I'm getting to the point where I have to exercise to maintain comfortable function.

Today I'm doing lunch and a mani/pedi with my downstairs neighbor/tenant, Jamille. Our relationship has moved more towards friendship but this is our first outing together. So it's a step up from hanging out in the garage with her, drinking cocktails while she hands out farm share boxes.

Then lunch with Emmett tomorrow, and Matilda and I have dinner with Hannah (one of JZ's inner circle) on Friday. Matilda has been missing Hannah especially, so that'll be good.

I wrote that up and forgot to post it this morning.

So to follow-up: Had a great lunch and manicure with Jamille. We hung out for four hours talking, had a great lunch, got to treat her to some pampering it was lovely.

Then I swung by Alembic solo, chatted up some of the staff that I usually don't get to talk to that much and then had a very fun talk with two young women who were in the City for work.

So conversation aplenty.

Lunch tomorrow with Emmett. Lunch on Friday with JenK! Yay! Then dinner with Hannah on Friday.

So many beloved humans.