gentle fistbump of solidarity with Pix

Yeah. Money is not a fun thing right now.

Ugh, that sucks Pix and ND. Hope it clears up soon.

I had a weird thing happen today at the gym. Not sure if I had an asthma attack or a panic moment or wtf happened. Like, I didn’t feel like I wasn’t getting oxygen or wasn’t able to breathe, but for a few minutes (after some running) I was basically gasping as I inhaled? And I think that freaked me out and made it worse? Not fun, did not enjoy, want to prevent in future (but without saying “therefore I will now not leave my couch” because I really do need to get in shape)

Also it has been gorgeous fall weather here the past few days and that has been so so nice.

David, as I've said, "Never put off 'til tomorrow what never needs to be done."

Like, I didn’t feel like I wasn’t getting oxygen or wasn’t able to breathe, but for a few minutes (after some running) I was basically gasping as I inhaled? And I think that freaked me out and made it worse?

That sounds very unpleasant! Let's avoid that. And yes, breathing issues can increase anxiety and panic.

Sorry about the money stress. Sending pay~your~dang~bills~ma toward your customers.

I'm annoyed at my son, but can't really say anything. He can't stand living in the city where he is, and really I would hate it too. He wants to move about a half hour away to a better location. That's fine except his GF has a wonderful job that she loves and they love her. She doesn't drive and he doesn't want to drive her that far to her job. He does delivery so his schedule is completely flexible so it is doable, he could even catch a delivery headed in whichever direction he was going. There is no other real option for transportation except maybe a coworker meeting them half way. Anyway, he is a jerk. My concern is that she is going to get sick of him always having to have things his way and leave him. He has had maybe 3 serious girlfriends who have all left him, and then he is devastated and sobbing, when honestly it is always his fault. I am gently trying to get him to be more accommodating, but not much I can do. Kids! (yes at 31 he is still a kid)

We've got a hummingbird trapped in the house.

I tried to use a broom to shush it towards the open window but that just made it flee in high speed terror.

So now I've opened several windows and closed several doors and hope the beautiful dimwit figures it out.

I was basically gasping as I inhaled? And I think that freaked me out and made it worse?

No good, and yes there is a serious panic response to breathing issues. Maybe join a yoga class since they focus on breathing. Or even Tai Chi.

On my kid frustration, I also had DH crying saying how much of a failure he was because his sons are both jerks. There seems to be no way I can convince him that he was the best father I could have ever hoped for, who gave unconditional love and support to the boys. Seriously, never was anything but wonderful with them. It isn't his fault! Millions of great parents have jerks for kids. I just can't seem to make him not consider it his fault. (My mom was the same way, but we were only jerks as teens and grew out of it. Then for the rest of her life we teased her that everything was her fault.)

Maybe put some sugar water near an open window?

We've got a hummingbird trapped in the house.

Oh no! We had a little goldfinch in the house once that my neighbor managed to get out the patio doors. He was great with animals. My big fear was the cats! I hope she decides that it is nicer outdoors.