I had a therapist for a while there and did a lot of talking about just... stuff. But I don't have much interpersonal contact these days so that's part of why it was so useful for me. If you're not feeling the "I wish I had someone I could say this to" feeling, then maybe you don't need it in your life right now. I'm glad you're in touch with your mourning. I hate that you have so much of it to do.

Um, hi, folks!

I’m home now enjoying a proper cup of tea for the first time in two days and trying to see if I can rally enough to go to parents night at ltc’s school.

I hope you are able to recoup. Parent's night! Sometimes they were nice and actual fun, other times they were filled with parents I wasn't remotely interested in having a conversation with.

Hi Maria! Hi Emily! Very nice to see you in here.

So, my bones are getting old. Sunday while sitting in the car in the Lowe's parking lot my hip froze solid. It took me, with the help of DH, about 20 minutes to gradually straigten the leg and finally put weight on it. Then I walked a couple laps of the parking lot to get it good and loose. Then last night, just sitting in a chair watching tv with my sister, same ordeal. About 20 minutes of torture while getting it functional again. Other than those times I can walk and do whatever. Went to doctor today. They did x-rays. Bone spurs in the hip. The first two items on the list are lose weight and PT. (other less pleasant like shots) Anyway, I go to the chiropractor on Friday with the x-ray report in hand to get a plan together. Really would rather not have it lock up again.

Well, that stinks, Laura, I'm sorry. Asshole bone spurs.

Hello, Emily and Maria!

David, all kinds of love continues your and Matilda's way from here every day.

Simple pleasure. My ornamental peppers continue to show some great colors:
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Timelies all!

I’m so sorry, David.

David, lots of love to you and Matilda.

So pretty, dcp!

I am adjusting to work and I think I'm doing ok although I went and told the store manager that yes I was making sure all the product was together on top stock only to realize that I hadn't on an aisle that she'd asked me to work AND she was putting out product and realized I hadn't.

But then I ended up chatting with some co workers after I got off about tv and music including Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Supernatural. The woman and I started talking about Buffy to convince the guy he needed to see it and I mentioned The Body and she was relating to how she was grounded when it was on and had to sneak to watch it and try not to get caught. Although I am not sure she meant the original airing but watching it on streaming or a rerun.

And the guy had watched Angel but not Buffy I'm not sure how and started to watch Buffy because he liked Angel but he wasn't in the show enough so he lost interest. Plus he didn't think it was as good as Supernatural.

Although even though he is a really big fan of the show he didn't seem to know the actors names it was so different the way they were talking about various shows and being fans and how I've been fannish about shows. But still it's really nice to have co workers to geek out with about things.

David, I am so sorry for this second loss so close on the heels of the other. When losses pile up like that, the odd combination of pain and grief and numbness and disassociation can begin to make even simple things seem very, very difficult. I hope you have both space and time to find your way through. And we are here. Our wings are not tired.

So pretty, dcp!