Coffee and double posting:

There's apparently a protest later today, very close to me, against a Kahanistic MK who will be in the area at that time.

I don't want to go but I'm also writing this here to make myself go because vita activa and all that. Arggg.

I wish I had more words to add, good words.

You've given me lots of good words. I'm seeing if we can get some of your words into Jacqueline's service.

Sometimes I think that we should go to therapy when nothing is wrong, so that the therapist has a baseline for who you are and how you cope.

That seems very sensible.

I dealt with last night with cocktails and nachos and distracting videos.

Talked to Emmett on the phone and cried.

Had another long call with a friend and threw in some choked sobs, but also, just conversation about grief and cancer care during marriage.

I've run every day since I got back from Georgia, trying to maintain a groove and get back into shape after 8 months of airport food. But I'm taking a break this morning.

I was supposed to have a colonoscopy today but the prep did not work and they weren’t able to do it. They did the endoscopy, and now I’m going to have to do a cologuard test. I’m home now enjoying a proper cup of tea for the first time in two days and trying to see if I can rally enough to go to parents night at ltc’s school.

I'm so sorry, David. None of you should have to handle any more than you're already handling.

Matilda's ex has horrible timing. If she wants to commiserate with someone who's ex also had terrible timing, I am available to her at any point.

What everyone else has said about therapy. I didn't go after Rob died, which was a mistake in hindsight. Not because I couldn't handle it, but because I could have used the impartial viewpoint of a therapist. They don't have a horse in the race.

I had a therapist for a while there and did a lot of talking about just... stuff. But I don't have much interpersonal contact these days so that's part of why it was so useful for me. If you're not feeling the "I wish I had someone I could say this to" feeling, then maybe you don't need it in your life right now. I'm glad you're in touch with your mourning. I hate that you have so much of it to do.

Um, hi, folks!

I’m home now enjoying a proper cup of tea for the first time in two days and trying to see if I can rally enough to go to parents night at ltc’s school.

I hope you are able to recoup. Parent's night! Sometimes they were nice and actual fun, other times they were filled with parents I wasn't remotely interested in having a conversation with.

Hi Maria! Hi Emily! Very nice to see you in here.

So, my bones are getting old. Sunday while sitting in the car in the Lowe's parking lot my hip froze solid. It took me, with the help of DH, about 20 minutes to gradually straigten the leg and finally put weight on it. Then I walked a couple laps of the parking lot to get it good and loose. Then last night, just sitting in a chair watching tv with my sister, same ordeal. About 20 minutes of torture while getting it functional again. Other than those times I can walk and do whatever. Went to doctor today. They did x-rays. Bone spurs in the hip. The first two items on the list are lose weight and PT. (other less pleasant like shots) Anyway, I go to the chiropractor on Friday with the x-ray report in hand to get a plan together. Really would rather not have it lock up again.

Well, that stinks, Laura, I'm sorry. Asshole bone spurs.

Hello, Emily and Maria!

David, all kinds of love continues your and Matilda's way from here every day.

Simple pleasure. My ornamental peppers continue to show some great colors:
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Timelies all!

I’m so sorry, David.

David, lots of love to you and Matilda.