Can't even shout, Can't even cry. The Gentlemen are coming by. Looking in windows, knocking on doors. They need to take seven, and they might take yours. Can't call to mom, can't say a word. You're gonna die screaming but you won't be heard.

Dream Girl ,'Bring On The Night'


Natter 77: I miss my friends. I miss my enemies. I miss the people I talked to every day.  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


smonster - Sep 12, 2023 10:23:30 am PDT #25283 of 30000
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

How are you feeling, Hil? You’re going back to work tomorrow, right?

I hope they’ll be able to treat your uncle effectively, smonster.

I realized from my surprise at the well wishes that I just assumed this was the beginning of the end for him and he’d be dead in a few months, if not sooner. Speaks to my mindset right now.

Related but brighter, I recognized my mentor’s wife walking her dog on my way to work and pulled over to talk. I got an update and hugs and now we have each other’s number. Glad to have a conduit for info out and support in.

Mercury super needs to stop drinking that Gatorade. Or whatever is going on needs to knock the fuck off.


Hil R. - Sep 12, 2023 10:38:54 am PDT #25284 of 30000
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l

How are you feeling, Hil? You’re going back to work tomorrow, right?

Feeling OK. Not 100%, but well enough to go to work tomorrow -- it's a relatively light day, just teaching two classes. Still covered with all sorts of scary-looking bruises (on my arms from the IVs and cuffs, and on my chest from the CPR) that will show when I'm wearing a short-sleeved shirt, so prepared to get some stares and questions from students and/or colleages.


P.M. Marc - Sep 12, 2023 10:50:38 am PDT #25285 of 30000
So come, my friends, be not afraid/We are so lightly here/It is in love that we are made; In love we disappear

Feeling OK. Not 100%, but well enough to go to work tomorrow -- it's a relatively light day, just teaching two classes. Still covered with all sorts of scary-looking bruises (on my arms from the IVs and cuffs, and on my chest from the CPR) that will show when I'm wearing a short-sleeved shirt, so prepared to get some stares and questions from students and/or colleagues.

Jesus, Hil! That's terrifying, and I'm so glad you called 911 when you felt off.


-t - Sep 12, 2023 11:39:33 am PDT #25286 of 30000
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

That's amazing that you are already going back to work, Hil! I hope you are not pushing yourself too fast, but I'm glad you didn't need more invasive measures.


erikaj - Sep 12, 2023 12:06:10 pm PDT #25287 of 30000
Always Anti-fascist!

Totally, on both fronts. (and if somebody says "what are the odds?" you are uniquely positioned to answer.)


smonster - Sep 12, 2023 2:34:46 pm PDT #25288 of 30000
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

Take it easy tomorrow, Hil! I hope it goes well for you.


sj - Sep 12, 2023 2:38:22 pm PDT #25289 of 30000
"There are few hours in life more agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon tea."

Hil, I can't help but think how much that has to say about dealing with chronic pain. Back to work just after getting out of the hospital. Try not to overdo it.


smonster - Sep 12, 2023 2:59:32 pm PDT #25290 of 30000
We won’t stop until everyone is gay.

What sj said, too.


erikaj - Sep 12, 2023 3:01:51 pm PDT #25291 of 30000
Always Anti-fascist!

I suppose that's true. But I can't say that as if I wouldn't do it, Mom being on the Olympic Functioning Team


Hil R. - Sep 12, 2023 3:19:23 pm PDT #25292 of 30000
Sometimes I think I might just move up to Vermont, open a bookstore or a vegan restaurant. Adam Schlesinger, z''l

If it were possible to take the rest of the week off, I probably would, but my students have an exam on Friday that I can't reschedule, and I already owe so many people favors for covering classes for me. I'll take it easy as much as I can, and rest if I need to.