Unintended irony Windsparrow, though I'm used to being very two levels about the impairment,I can do it almost without noticing now, I suppose. But I meant that I'm not straight-ahead like my mother.(in addition, I expect to the crip humor.)

Thank you so much beekaytee for hosting. It was good to have your counselor experience in hand to make everything run smoothly and help us deal with our emotions. That was probably very difficult.

absolutely.

Yes, thanks for arranging.

I am sorry I couldn't keep it together.

Javachik, I really loved your memory, so thank you for sharing. It was very beautiful.

Don’t apologize for loving so hard that having to say goodbye makes it overflow, you wonderful humans you. Don’t apologize for being real, and open, and honest in our love and grief.

I'm so glad Matilda decided to be a part of it, as you've watched her all grow up.

I am so glad she was there to see our love for not just her mom, but for all of you. She’s a good kid.

I don’t think anyone used this word, but it seems to me a thread that connected many memories-JZ is an advocate, and a very good one and a very quiet one. From her open political work, to the Twitter and Facebook conversations, to Erika and others writing, to Emmet’s phone, to the children getting cardiac surgery, and even being there for many of us with social anxiety… all of it can be summed up as advocacy. I am glad she has you, David, and Matilda, and Lisa, and Emmett’s Mom and Nanita and Juliana being advocates for her.

Yeah, Sophia, I almost spoke again but knew I'd not be able to. Because I wanted to talk about how she never gives up on anyone. She's the embodiment of "nevertheless she persisted". She was so patient, even with jerks on twitter, trying to use common sense and compassion with people I would think of as undeserving of my time. JZ thinks every human was deserving of time.

I keep thinking about what Andrew Garfield said on the Late Late Show with Stephen Colbert about his mother's death:

“I love talking about her, by the way, so if I cry, it’s only a beautiful thing,” Garfield explained. “This is all > the unexpressed love, the grief that will remain with us until we pass because we never get enough time > with each other, no matter if someone lives till 60, 15, or 99.”

“So I hope this grief stays with me because it’s all the unexpressed love that I didn’t get to tell her,” he > added. “And I told her every day. We all told her every day. She was the best of us.”

I feel like we could have told JZ we love her every day since we've known her and it still wouldn't be enough time or enough words. Or any of you.

Javachik-- you have nothing to apologize for it was such a beautiful memory.

True to form I burst into tears the minute I logged off, and then ltc came running back in the room to hug me. I can’t cry in front of so many people, I guess.