Many grrrrrs for jackhammers and uncommunicative dudes.

Yay for retirement!! Jealous. I have to wait until next February.

Boo jackhammers.

Yay retirement.

And JuneBirthdays ! Mine is Friday, E is getting in Thursday and M and I will pick him up at the airport etc. It will be a nice birthday. Dad is coming up Thursday as well and I have Sunday off so we will have Father's Day together.

Heard from the lawyer about my worker's comp case. They counter offered with the max amount she thought she could get and quitting is non negotiable. There is no job for me and if I don't take the job then they will not increase my hours at all. I can wait for the neuro psych visit and keep working 12 hours a week and more than likely get a settlement for a lot less than this. Or take it now and negotiate the best I can with it.

Which is probably what I'll do. Unemployment isn't guaranteed at this point and I guess even if they do the termination/quitting so it's neutral there isn't a way to make sure they won't push back on an unemployment claim.

The lawyer pointed out --why would I want to work for a place that was negligent so I got hurt. And seeing the state of the stockrooms lately I don't think safety is ever going to be a top priority.

Also since I won't be able to work 40 hours the only way I will know how I do working full time hours is to get another job and once I settle I'll have relinquished my claim against the company so if working full time becomes an issue I don't know what I'll do.

There are a lot of things I'm not sure about but I'm going to get back with the lawyer on Monday.

Part of me is feeling like I made a huge mistake hiring a lawyer because if I hadn't I'd still have a job and the doctors haven't done anything. on the other hand I've had a lot of personal growth so there is that.

I don't know what I'll do about a job, obviously I'll need one but looking through Indeed....the options are slim (mostly--doesn't seem to pay enough, I wouldn't want that type of job/work there, and not qualified).

And part of me wants to get all -- I'm about to turn 50 and this is my life? how is my life no college degree, not sure I'll ever be able to retire and just generally like this-- but then I remember all the times I wasn't sure I'd be able to keep myself alive until now and how volatile my emotional and mental state has been for most of my life and I think this is a pretty good outcome for my life right now.

It's different, but I feel like I understand in some ways. Sorry that the money comes with, well, a mindfuck(and not the fun kind.) mine does, too.

Ugh, askye, what a nightmare. Your company sounds fucking awful. Do you think they would have given you a settlement without a lawyer?

I'm kind of processing things right now.

But hey in better news I spent the day with Crafty Friend and we worked on our own projects and chatted and got to know each other more. And that was really fun and the Recraft store is opening up to volunteers again next week or the week after so I'm finally going to start volunteering there. Since talkign to Crafty Friend about the people who work and volunteer there it seems like a place where I can start to feel more like a part of a community .

lisah -I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have had a settlement, I probably would have just given up on trying to get care and gone back to work. And I would have had a job. I'm basing this on the 4 people I know who were injured at work and went through worker's comp.

Three of them just gave up trying to get care after a certain amount of time and one of them had surgery although it was delayed.

Three of those people who were injured were in fulfillment with me (2 were trip hazards and I'm not sure about the other).

Well, mom has passed. Yesterday evening was pretty rough, she wasn’t able to speak and we weren’t sure how to help her or what she wanted. But it was pretty clearly near the end and now in the wee hours of the morning, she’s gone. This is stupid.

Oh, meara, I am so sorry and sending so much love for you and your family as you're going through this awful loss.

I am so sorry, meara. This was just so painfully quick. Sending my love to you and your family.

Separately, and to provide some balance in our lives, today we do have cause for celebration. Today we celebrate the birthday of Javachik. I do hope you are spoiling yourself today and that the year to come is filled with joy.