all these little details that fall between the cracks if you don't

Yep. The trick is to learn the protocol and find ways to help the flow rather than hinder it. In twelve infusions I only had the same nurse twice, but I could listen to the flow of conversations and the tones and get an idea of how well their day was going.

I took some pride in always being early and well-prepared and as self-sufficient as I could be. If there were any delays, it wasn't due to me.

It really sucks that you had to learn how to do that, dcp.

Yes. You are right to be proud of that, but it’s not a skill anyone should be needing to develop.

Went to Target; in lieu of happy hour I got a cold bottle of ginger ale.

Thirding this emotion. just like working the system to get benefits does not feel like a compliment.

Yes, also a skill that should not be required!

I'm good at it, but instead of proud advocacy, it really feels like winning a shit-sandwich-eating contest. you don't want your kids to grow up and learn that!(except that sometimes learning to shut up and keep your own counsel is not a bad strategy, )but other than that, I hate what it's taught me. About people, my own value, the epic personal issues that appear to be the drivers for entry into helping professions, you name it.

Also, the energy that got me A's in high school? Makes me a fearful suck-up in almost every other context.

The trick is to learn the protocol and find ways to help the flow rather than hinder it.

Not cool to have to expend limited energy resources on these efforts.

I'm at my sister's house. I'm the young healthy one here so I keep extra busy. Also, driving over alligator alley yesterday resulted in lots of bugs on the front of DH's car. I tried to get them off, but wasn't real successful. He said they should come off easily with all his wax and sealing stuff on the vehicle, but maybe easy for him and easy for me are not the same.

We drove down the beach road to look at the recovery progress from Hurricane Ian. Pretty much all of the older beach homes are just gone. Only the ones built in recent years survived. All the condos were standing, but were empty so maybe they have structural damage or just still too much to fix. All the vegetation, trees and so forth on the inland side of the road was dead. Maybe from the salt water intrusion? Mostly the debris is gone from all the destroyed buildings, but still a whole lot of repairs needed on those that survived. A lot more empty lots.

In exciting local news, the latest report on the giant seaweed mass headed our way shows it is 5000 miles long and weighs 3 million tons. They will clean the beach in the city, but mangrove areas like the keys are going to stink horribly. Our beach will too, but to a lesser extent, maybe? This may help me decide when to head north for the summer.

Laura I read that and was like “but surely by the time summer is here….oh shit, it’s May” I am not ready.