WOO HOO DONE WITH CHEMO!!!

I over did it at work and I realized that part of the brain fog thing that happens is more like sensory overload and it kind of short circuits my brain. Being in my room (or a room) with it dark where I really can focus on one thing is easier than being out in the house with lights and stuff.

I realized that part of the problem is that everything is kind of ALL AT ONCE at me. Don't know a better way to describe it ...it's just all THERE and I can't , like filter it out.

M's mom really really wants to watch football. I don't blame her I want to watch football but the FSU game is going to be on ESPN. I'm not sure why I really want to watch it, they are playing LSU so I assume FSU is just going to lose badly. But she kept asking how we could get ESPN. I came up with Hulu Live as the best and cheapest option. Yes, she says, I'll pay for what it will cost if you add it to your bill. I get the Hulu/disney/espn+ bundle but espn+ doesn't include the games we want to watch. I tell her the price and she says ok she'll give me the money if I add it on. Cool. I do that.

THEN she's all ... so we're going to split the bill right? No. I tell her. I had no plans to get Hulu Live that was her choice and I'm not paying anything toward that. So now she wants to cancel it. At no point did I say or imply or anything that I would split the cost with her. I was clear with her that I would add it on and that she could pay me the $70/month and I would put that in my account. And she tried to kind of guilt me into splitting it, very subtly. Not my problem. If she doesn't want to pay for it I'll cancel it.

She did spring from Peacock plus although the cheapest version ... which BTW Peacock is running a special so it's $1.99/month for 12 months right now. I guess because Days of Our Lives is switching to streaming only. Anyway that's the version with ads and the cheapest option, normally it's $4.99/mth so if anyone has stuff they want to watch on Peacock now is a good time to sign up.

Honestly I'm ready to just hit up the library and start watching DVDs and seeing if they still come with extras and stuff because honestly I miss commentaries and things for movies and tv shows that doesn't happen with streaming. Plus half the time I end up spending too much time trying to figure out what to watch. It was easier when it was just a stack of dvds. Speaking of which I need to dig out my Thin Man dvds, M saw a picture of Asta and I was explaining to him about The Thin Man and somehow I've never shown it to him. Or I have and he forgot and I can make him watch the sequels.

Yay last chemo, Epic!!

Yay, Epic! That's wonderful news!

Yay! End of chemo, Epic!

THEN she's all ... so we're going to split the bill right? No. I tell her.

I know it's entirely your plan so I am just out here being supportive until there is something more constructive any of us can offer besides words but OMG you guys need to get your own place as soon as you can get away from her. Which is not easy for a ton of reasons right now, I get. But this lurker supports you on a message board.

You are also being really strong through this whole concussion recovery. I've had more than a few (Im trying not to have any, friendly lurkers!!) so I'm glad to trade notes including with mental illness that didn't always play nice if that helps you out.

Epic!!! Yay!!! Fuck off chemo!

Cass that would be appreciated. My email address in my profile is good.

Goal for when I (hopefully) get a settlement from worker's comp is paying off as much of my remaining debt that I have (including my parents) and then figuring out a place to live that is not here.

Although today isn't too bad... M was convinced to grill burgers and hot dogs so that was nice.

I really wish that it would not only cool off but that the humidity level would drop.

In family hilarious mess news: my brother’s second child was born in February. At some point he and my mother had a big fight. She has been moaning to me that he has cut her out of his life and worse, the lives of her grandchildren, since about March. He ignores all her attempts to reach out and reconcile.

I have been mediating, passing along baby photos and news, for months. I invited my brother and his family to visit me over Labor Day weekend, and made sure it would be ok if my mother visited as well while they were here. Yesterday was the great reconciliation.

In the course of which, with everyone in the family present and looking on, it was discovered that my mother had blocked my brother’s number, angrily, at some point, and then apparently forgotten about it. So, every time she reached out, he had been replying, including sending pictures. She didn’t receive any messages because she had him blocked. He didn’t notice she didn’t reply directly to anything he said because he’s kind of clueless and our mother is kind of non-sequitor-y over text in the normal way of things.

Everyone found this hilarious except my mother, who was embarrassed. I am mostly just amazed she knows how to block people’s numbers.

Oh no, Mama Flea! That's really funny.

Omg flea!

Today I learned that my car’s registration expired in March. I renewed electronically. Immediately.

Also electronically got mac’s new phone activated and working.

My cousin is at mac’s place now loading up the items to go to storage and possibly having a come to Jesus/make better choices talk. I hope also taking him for a meal. They’re also to turn in mac’s keys and sign closet out papers with the apartment, then Mac will sleep on the floor tonight and flight out in the morning.

New dawn, new day.