Timelies all!

Ugh. Mr. S just wouldn't go to sleep last night. Finally fell asleep around midnight, and was up at 7. Most of the day was fine, and did well at the restaurant we took Gary's mom to for her birthday. Suddenly, while we were driving home he started kicking my seat, pulling my hair and took his seatbelt off. A couple blocks from home Gary pulled over and he and Mr. S walked the rest of the way while I drove. I just don't understand this kid sometimes.

Thank you, David. I have some time to ruminate before we get the sign made. I'll add them to the list.

Love the history, Jess. We have a lot of family contractions here too. My parents called their camp LaJoMaNo for the 4 kids, Laura, John, Mary, and Norene. Of course my 3 siblings were never called by their given names, John was Jim (initials for John Ira Miller), Mary was Judi (Mary Judith) and Norene was Mona (Dad called her Desdemona before she was born but she was named Norene for my aunts Norma and Irene). I was the only one called by my name.

Laura, I think your link is missing www.

Added, although it works for me either way.

My sister advised me not to discuss this family history with my kids, but I think I need to so they have a context and history to understand where they came from, and what to look out for.

If you have a therapist you're working with on the regular, I'd run your thoughts around this past them and see what they say: they aren't going to be horrified, they're a neutral third party who's sworn to confidentiality, and they'd be a good resource for what would be an appropriate level of detail to share.

Speaking for me (and Ken, in a chat window giving permission to share), having context for existing mental health issues - and family backstory that made some of them worse - put a lot of the eldest child thoughts of "I should have managed this situation better" to bed, with a story and cookies and a warm blanket. I was 11 when it all went to hell; I survived it, but I wish those lessons had been taught to me in a gentler way, and I certainly want that for your children.

Added, although it works for me either way.

Hmmm. I get a message about a security cert. issue.

This server couldn't prove that it's www.lakeidadreamhome.com; its security certificate is from www.server304.com. This may be caused by a misconfiguration or an attacker intercepting your connection.

It could be an old certificate as the site was closed months ago. I just used it because it was a handy empty place to upload something.

I have been doing a lot of reading and responding in my head. I really miss having a thing at work called downtime, and the times before reading on the phone or iPad. Sometimes the thought of having to deal with autocorrect for our shared language, names, and abbreviations gets me down and too lazy to respond in the moment.

I got the error too, dcp (but I clicked in because it was Laura). My error was from safari, and that someone might be trying to get my financial info.

That graphic is adorable.

David- I have been following the stuff about your parents.Amy Parker is wise. I, personally, would tell people, but I am also firmly of the belief that secrets are sometimes the trauma. As someone who grew up with a lot of secrets, it pains me that there are certain things I will just never know. I don’t know if it is different for the following generation, as things might not have been so weird for them. My my informing trauma was my grandparents’ stuff (which informed my mother’s stuff and her propensity for keeping secrets to protect me, so it is a little personal to me) Dani Shapiro has a really good podcast called Family Secrets where she explores this [link]

askye- I am following along with your recovery from the concussion. I think you are doing so well with advocating for yourself. I do not have a concussion and would totally throw away the paper check instead of the junk mail. I was in a bad spot the other week, because I lost my debit card, ordered a new one, found the old one (which was cancelled) and then lost the new one!

Steph- I was just in Nashville, and though it sounds like your friend brought it from outside- boy did it seem like a breeding ground for Covid. I noticed that their did not seem to be a mask mandate, but most of the service workers were all masked up. And there were a lot of women riding party busses- that must have been the bachelorette parties.

In my news, a beloved former student who was a teacher locally just passed away. Unfortunately my memory is shot in terms of time, but I think she was about 30. The cause is “undetermined” and she was found similarly to ita. There were none of the code words used for suicide- which since I have lost two other students was a relief. But my students should not be gone from the world when they have so much to give.

Oh, that's so sad, Sophia.

I can't even begin to respond to everything else, so I will just say kind thoughts to all -- and Laura, I love "Otter Bliss"!!

Love it when the first thing my work computer does on Monday morning is update the BIOS. Not at all alarming.

Edit: Oh, and the threat of rolling blackouts because it's been over 100 degrees for days and will continue to be for the forseeable future. Awesome.

David - My Mom was in her 60s when she learned the "family secret" (her dad went to prison for a couple of years when she was an infant for embezzlement). She had never known. It didn't upset her, but it did explain a lot about her mom and childhood and made her sympathize much more with her mother, who was a difficult woman. Not in a mental health way, but annoying, whiny and put-upon and socially rigid (not really the right word - insistent on doing things the "right" way). Anyway, it helped Mom to understand what her mom had put up with and how it made her what she was. So learning it was a good thing, I think. Particularly when her mom developed cancer and became even more annoying and whiny.

Of course, my sister and I thought the whole thing was a hoot and loved having a family scandal to tell people. I wouldn't say it helped us deal with Grandmother - she was still annoying and so we avoided her whenever possible (which I kinda regret now, but we were young).

YMMV, but it sounds to me like a good lesson for the kids about the kinds of issues the previous generations were dealing with and how that helps explain them.

David- I have been following the stuff about your parents.Amy Parker is wise. I, personally, would tell people, but I am also firmly of the belief that secrets are sometimes the trauma. As someone who grew up with a lot of secrets, it pains me that there are certain things I will just never know. I don’t know if it is different for the following generation, as things might not have been so weird for them. My my informing trauma was my grandparents’ stuff (which informed my mother’s stuff and her propensity for keeping secrets to protect me, so it is a little personal to me) Dani Shapiro has a really good podcast called Family Secrets where she explores this

Thanks, Sophia. I was mindful of your and Drew's histories when I was thinking about it (and Bonny and Nanita too, thinking about my mom's childhood). I'll check out the podcast.

David - My Mom was in her 60s when she learned the "family secret" (her dad went to prison for a couple of years when she was an infant for embezzlement). She had never known. It didn't upset her, but it did explain a lot about her mom and childhood and made her sympathize much more with her mother, who was a difficult woman. Not in a mental health way, but annoying, whiny and put-upon and socially rigid (not really the right word - insistent on doing things the "right" way). Anyway, it helped Mom to understand what her mom had put up with and how it made her what she was. So learning it was a good thing, I think. Particularly when her mom developed cancer and became even more annoying and whiny.

I think it does help to have that context. Of course another factor is that Emmett's turning 26 this September, and Matilda's turning 16, so they're not at the same place in their lives. I'd have a hard time talking about some of my mom's traumas with Matilda at this age.

Emmett's the only one who has met that side of my family, btw. He went with me to Georgia for my Dad's memorial, and I introduced him to my Aunt Edna and my cousins on that side. Including my cousin Malcolm, who's like 6'5" and beat the shit out of my Boogeyman Uncle Raymond when he drunkenly set the house on fire. So it's not super distant in time or generations really.