I did it! Okay, so it was the world's saddest-looking joint, even after I in fact rolled it twice, first time totally rejected.
But it worked! I was able to take a couple tokes, which is all that I wanted -- this is a strain that's supposed to help with pain and insomnia (Golden Lemon #6), so the intent was only mildly to get high, but mostly to see if it would be a good fibro-flare intervention.
I'll investigate edibles and so on in the future. (They have chocolate bars!) But the problem is that in my long-past experience, hash brownies made me high for a solid day, which is not in accordance with my hard-driving lifestyle.
All heart to you, msbelle. I'm hoping that mac came home.
msbelle, is there any kind of disability you can look into? I'm worried about you.
To tie the convos together, mac came home 5 min past curfew as I was locking the doors AND he was high. So many good times in our home.
I don't mean to worry you all. I am really just emotionally exhausted. Truth is even days off will not make that better because he is still a mess and that is what is the cause. I'lll call today about starting g therapy again and maybe they can up my meds short term or give me a stronger something when bullshit goes down so I don't just turn off which is what I kinda do now.
msbelle I feel for you all the time. I am incredibly stressed out by my teen who is flirting with failing classes, but aside from that is almost always safe at home and cooperative in general and has friends whom I trust. Please try and get yourself some help & support.
At least regular therapy is a start! But you need more support for yourself, for sure.
In other news, I am sleepy because I was awoken too early this morning by a turkey! Apparently it was roosting last night in my neighbors' tree, and surprisingly high up!
At least the raccoons are quiet.
Only a couple tokes, just enough to feel a slight buzz. I felt relaxed and got to sleep fairly easily... The real test will be when I have a flare going on.
I hope you do get to a therapist, msbelle. My juvenile is 27 now, and hasn't progressed since middle school. The only difference is that at this point I really understand the limits of control you really have over your children's decisions.
Trinity is a challenge. Her life has been all about being able to run on vast acreage with other dogs and sleeping in a crate. Now she has moved to the big city with lots of strange people and noises. DH took her to the beach yesterday for a walk and she did not handle it well. Traffic, roller blades, bikes, runners! She was way over stimulated. When she got home DH sat outside talking on the phone for a while. It was dark and when my son and DIL came out of the house to meet her she charged at them barking. DIL is super freaked out now and doesn't want anything to do with her. Son has more dog experience and gets the over stimulated part.
So, we bought her a crate and she happily slept in it last night. We have a friend who trains that we will engage. She is young and smart and I believe will train easily, but not sure how to reassure DIL. Sigh.
