I'm not ramping up fast enough.
When my beloved started working at the game store, he had a lot of trouble figuring out the cash register and was sure he was going to get booted for it. He worked there for ten years, figured out how to generate sales reports from the register, helped re-program the major distributor's ordering software, and became a legend in the Western US gaming industry. Games Workshop's sales people sometimes consulted him, and Neil From The Keep was known to many in the industry.
But those first two weeks made him lose confidence in a way I'd never seen. Become a legend, Gud.
What Connie said. It is way too early to get discouraged. You do not need less sleep. It is far more likely that you need more sleep. Some support and encouragement at home would go a long way too. Find the time to see a therapist, Gud. You have been listening to the wrong voices. You are a valuable person to so many. To us, to your family, to the world, and to your employer. Until you go to bed confident of this fact you need to get help.
Work is not going great. I'm not ramping up fast enough.
Has anyone said this to you directly? Or is this just how you feel?
If it's been said to you directly, that is a toxic workplace and you should think about getting out. Where I work, we don't expect new hires to be productive in their new roles for 3-6 months (sometimes even longer) regardless of their previous experience.
If it's just you saying this to yourself, DO NOT sleep less to catch up. You aren't going to do your best work while sleep-deprived.
{{{Gud}}} Those times when I feel like I just need to stop sleeping in order to actually do anything for myself are terrible. I hope you can get through this tough spot okay.
When everyone says you are a failure it's probably true
Who is everyone? We are telling you you're a good person and a hard worker who accomplishes more in a week than many of us do in a month.
How's your wife doing, Gud? I'm actually kind of worried about her, too. You know you have my admiration and support!
Gud if people at work are saying you are a failure you need to get out it's a toxic work environment.
If your wife is saying that you need to get out it's a toxic home environment.
WE are not saying that. We believe in you and know you are capable of doing this job.
Please please believe us. Also make sure you get more rest. Sleep is important.
Timelies all!
We ended up postponing the playdate because Gary's fighting a cold. They're busy tomorrow, so it'll have to be a different weekend.
When everyone says you are a failure it's probably true
No, that doesn't sound right. Who is this "everyone"?
