What Connie said. It is way too early to get discouraged. You do not need less sleep. It is far more likely that you need more sleep. Some support and encouragement at home would go a long way too. Find the time to see a therapist, Gud. You have been listening to the wrong voices. You are a valuable person to so many. To us, to your family, to the world, and to your employer. Until you go to bed confident of this fact you need to get help.
Bar maid! Bring me stronger ale! And some plump, succulent babies to eat!
Olaf the Troll ,'Showtime'
Natter 76: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Foaminess
Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.
Laura - Mar 09, 2019 7:15:22 am PST #5772 of 30019
Our wings are not tired.
shrift - Mar 09, 2019 7:20:01 am PST #5773 of 30019
"You can't put a price on the joy of not giving a shit." -Zenkitty
Work is not going great. I'm not ramping up fast enough.
Has anyone said this to you directly? Or is this just how you feel?
If it's been said to you directly, that is a toxic workplace and you should think about getting out. Where I work, we don't expect new hires to be productive in their new roles for 3-6 months (sometimes even longer) regardless of their previous experience.
If it's just you saying this to yourself, DO NOT sleep less to catch up. You aren't going to do your best work while sleep-deprived.
-t - Mar 09, 2019 7:22:07 am PST #5774 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
{{{Gud}}} Those times when I feel like I just need to stop sleeping in order to actually do anything for myself are terrible. I hope you can get through this tough spot okay.
Gudanov - Mar 09, 2019 8:18:39 am PST #5775 of 30019
Coding and Sleeping
When everyone says you are a failure it's probably true
Kate P. - Mar 09, 2019 8:20:30 am PST #5776 of 30019
That's the pain / That cuts a straight line down through the heart / We call it love
Who is everyone? We are telling you you're a good person and a hard worker who accomplishes more in a week than many of us do in a month.
Theodosia - Mar 09, 2019 8:56:42 am PST #5777 of 30019
'we all walk this earth feeling we are frauds. The trick is to be grateful and hope the caper doesn't end any time soon"
How's your wife doing, Gud? I'm actually kind of worried about her, too. You know you have my admiration and support!
askye - Mar 09, 2019 9:02:53 am PST #5778 of 30019
Thrive to spite them
Gud if people at work are saying you are a failure you need to get out it's a toxic work environment.
If your wife is saying that you need to get out it's a toxic home environment.
WE are not saying that. We believe in you and know you are capable of doing this job.
Please please believe us. Also make sure you get more rest. Sleep is important.
Sheryl - Mar 09, 2019 9:36:44 am PST #5779 of 30019
Fandom means never having to say "But where would I wear that?"
Timelies all!
We ended up postponing the playdate because Gary's fighting a cold. They're busy tomorrow, so it'll have to be a different weekend.
-t - Mar 09, 2019 9:46:39 am PST #5780 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration
When everyone says you are a failure it's probably true
No, that doesn't sound right. Who is this "everyone"?
Jesse - Mar 09, 2019 10:53:04 am PST #5781 of 30019
Sometimes I trip on how happy we could be.
This may or may not be relevant, but also feedback about how to improve, especially when you're doing something new, is not the same thing as being a failure. You should be learning at your new job! It's still new!