I've been eating free breakfast and lunch at work for the last 12 years, and I only needed to cook for myself on evenings and weekends. This means that I'm thoroughly sick of my usual go-to food, and I've been trying to pick different meals to try when I'm not standing in front of the refrigerator saying, "I don't fucking know what I want!"

In theory it's a great idea. I made bhindi masala! In practice, I have been putting off attempting palak paneer for days because I've been too exhausted to try making something new right now. I don't get that sick of leftovers, so batch cooking has been my friend.

I wish to associate myself with the remarks of my learned friend.

(I am so sick of cooking. Bring me my rutting food pills.)

Not looking at local real estate listings is also in my best interests, though a realtor I know here is having a grand time - commission on a house in the median price range of $900k is what, 3%? It's one thing to know that you can't afford to buy where you live, but I'm rapidly reaching the point of "Fuck this, the local businesses are going under and the house prices are still going up - I don't want to be here when all the folks moving over from Seattle realize they're gonna be buying their underpants on Amazon, let's find somewhere we can live near our kid."

I'm perpetually torn between wanting to try something new and having to remember to make a list before I go to the store - doubly so in these times of limited exposure.

I can get a free sandwich for lunch at work, so today it is smoked turkey with mayo on rye. Sometimes I go wild and have chicken salad instead.

I bought a bunch of meal replacement shake packets for when I need to eat but nothing sounds good/everything is too hard. That mostly works out okay, although sometimes even that is too much.

I have no specific reason why feeding myself has become difficult, it's just part of how everything is hard right now, I think, and it's one more thing.

Speaking of, I'm going to take this opportunity to dish up some leftover grits with black-eyed peas and spinach before our biweekly "town hall" starts

it's one more thing.

Definitely. It's like...I have to get up? And make a decision? And then make the actual food?

I made myself a duck salad sandwich for lunch and there is enough duck salad for tomorrow's lunch as well.

Shit. I need to make lunch.

I was having a truly miserable morning - my keyboard's messed up enough, partly because the letters are worn off most of the keys (the ones I use most) and it's arranged differently than I've been used to so even looking, I have trouble hitting the right keys and a file I created last week is missing. Every time I try looking at one of the other files, I get the message that someone else has it open - usually my boss, but often enough it's "other user" ... which is weird. BUT! I went out and got a hot sandwich AND a coffee shake and life is less annoying.