I was actually hoping people would be more interested in the research, as for me that's been the fascinating part . . . I've been helping the granddaughter of a woman who was adopted in Kansas in the late 1930s. I was the first close match who'd come up; once my mother tested, we were able to narrow her potential fathers to one of my great-uncles.

There's a book that came out this year on consumer-grade genetic testing, Libby Copeland's The Lost Family, that features Alice Collins Plebuch's search for her father Jim's genetic family as the thruline. It discusses genetic privacy, "ethnicity estimates" (population scientists: oh Lord please stop), big data sets, the rights of adopted/donor-conceived children to accurate genealogical and medical history weighed with their biological contributors' right to privacy - it's a dry read in places, but I recommend it.

For me, I finally have context for how my family reached this unbelievably fucked-up place: there are literal generations of trauma that narrowed people's focus to survival. I have a great deal more compassion for everyone's bad choices.

I'm kind of curious about the genetic testing. We don't know much about my dad's paternal grandfather.

My aunt has done research on ancestry but it just stops with bad records and various spellings of names.

Today's tasks so they stop spinning in my head.

get virtual psych appt - 2 days left of meds!
get wet dog food/treats ordered, you are out of wet dog food
get greek yogurt ordered, you are out for extra dog bribery
Get call to vet for dog visit, need a baseline for Miley - a few odd behavior things since receiving her
Try AGAIN to get a PCP Dr visit - they keep getting cancelled

I haven't looked at today's numbers for Kitsap County, but they were up yesterday. Our gym sent a card out saying "We'll be open in Phase 3!", to which Jim and I replied "That's nice, have fun without us." Before this kicked off, I lifted in the back and the regulars couldn't be bothered to rack their weights when they were done, I sure as hell don't trust them to mask properly or clean up after themselves.

earliest psych appt is 7/15 - SOOOO trying through regular medical appt if they will refill.

I have a 1 hour break on my all day training to try and do these tasks and it is now half over.

Can you get a virtual appt with your Tx psych?

My aunt has done research on ancestry but it just stops with bad records and various spellings of names.

My mom has been doing the genealogical research for my family and she keeps saying that our ancestors were really good at not getting recorded for anything and really bad at spelling their names consistently. I should really sit down with her and look at the big picture, she's been telling me little interesting details as she finds them but I don't have any sense of how they all fit together.

My mom has been doing the genealogical research for my family and she keeps saying that our ancestors were really good at not getting recorded for anything and really bad at spelling their names consistently.

When Hil was doing some geneological research on my mom's side of the family she discovered multiple spellings of my maternal grandmother's name. But did find out that she went more by her middle name, so Prudence Azalea (pronounced "Aza-lee" with spellings that reflected that).

And then because that side of the family goes way back in the South she turned up slaveholders, and lots of relatives in counties which were infamous Klan hotbeds.

Turns out both my maternal and paternal lines go back before the revolutionary war. So Matilda can double shot the DAR.

I got my meds in TX with a PCP not a Psych and she has since retired.

Less than 15 min for a video dr they say, so I am not doing a thing to look better. perhaps an anxiety attack on the call will help? who knows!

90 days of meds!! YAY - full on crying with Dr. poor dear. Oh well - being my best authentic mess of a self! GO ME!