Death is your art. You make it with your hands day after day. That final gasp, that look of peace. And part of you is desperate to know: What's it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that's the secret. Not the punch you didn't throw or the kicks you didn't land. She really wanted it. Every Slayer has a death wish. Even you.

Spike ,'Conversations with Dead People'


Natter 76: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Foaminess  

Off-topic discussion. Wanna talk about corsets, duct tape, butt kicking, or physics? This is the place. Detailed discussion of any current-season TV must be whitefonted.


-t - Jun 30, 2020 7:41:46 am PDT #22982 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

My aunt has done research on ancestry but it just stops with bad records and various spellings of names.

My mom has been doing the genealogical research for my family and she keeps saying that our ancestors were really good at not getting recorded for anything and really bad at spelling their names consistently. I should really sit down with her and look at the big picture, she's been telling me little interesting details as she finds them but I don't have any sense of how they all fit together.


DavidS - Jun 30, 2020 7:48:03 am PDT #22983 of 30019
"Look, son, if it's good enough for Shirley Bassey, it's good enough for you."

My mom has been doing the genealogical research for my family and she keeps saying that our ancestors were really good at not getting recorded for anything and really bad at spelling their names consistently.

When Hil was doing some geneological research on my mom's side of the family she discovered multiple spellings of my maternal grandmother's name. But did find out that she went more by her middle name, so Prudence Azalea (pronounced "Aza-lee" with spellings that reflected that).

And then because that side of the family goes way back in the South she turned up slaveholders, and lots of relatives in counties which were infamous Klan hotbeds.

Turns out both my maternal and paternal lines go back before the revolutionary war. So Matilda can double shot the DAR.


msbelle - Jun 30, 2020 7:50:16 am PDT #22984 of 30019
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb

I got my meds in TX with a PCP not a Psych and she has since retired.

Less than 15 min for a video dr they say, so I am not doing a thing to look better. perhaps an anxiety attack on the call will help? who knows!


msbelle - Jun 30, 2020 7:56:58 am PDT #22985 of 30019
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb

90 days of meds!! YAY - full on crying with Dr. poor dear. Oh well - being my best authentic mess of a self! GO ME!


Steph L. - Jun 30, 2020 7:59:38 am PDT #22986 of 30019
Unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe

Success! Yay, msbelle!

I took 1/2 an Ativan (my anxiety had spiked super bad, you guys), and it's smoothed the edges off, but now I want a nap.


-t - Jun 30, 2020 8:00:00 am PDT #22987 of 30019
I am a woman of various inclinations and only some of the time are they to burn everything down in frustration

YAY MEDS. Honestly crying on the call is probably good (for you and for the doctor, I mean, not just in the sense of helping you get the prescription). I am REAL BAD at trying to seem okay and together for the people who are supposed to help me in my TOTALLY NOT OKAYNESS, so I'm kind of in awe of people who can do that


Laura - Jun 30, 2020 8:02:33 am PDT #22988 of 30019
Our wings are not tired.

Oh well - being my best authentic mess of a self! GO ME!

Woot! Do what it takes, kiddo!


Dana - Jun 30, 2020 8:26:03 am PDT #22989 of 30019
"I'm useless alone." // "We're all useless alone. It's a good thing you're not alone."

I'm glad you found something that worked, msbelle.


Laura - Jun 30, 2020 8:26:16 am PDT #22990 of 30019
Our wings are not tired.

Petty thought of the day: why is it that most times we see a picture of the orange turd on the golf course he is in the rough and not on the fairways or green?


msbelle - Jun 30, 2020 8:53:58 am PDT #22991 of 30019
I remember the crazy days. 500 posts an hour. Nubmer! Natgbsb

ok - 3 of my tasks done.

dog food stuff coming tomorrow. groceries coming today.

no email from pharmacy with meds, but it's only been an hour. breathing.

Now to try and pay attention to MS Project class while scheduling vet appt. I am not gonna stress on getting my Dr. appt done today because I now have meds.