It's anxiety attack Tuesday, apparently. How are you all doing?
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It's anxiety attack Tuesday, apparently. How are you all doing?
I was literally just about to post that my anxiety has shot through the goddamn roof today.
WOOHOO! or something. sisters in anxiety.
Completely related to my anxiety, cross-referencing excel spreadsheets on a single laptop screen on a deadline for your big boss is NOT IDEAL.
It's anxiety attack Tuesday, apparently. How are you all doing?
Oh, right on schedule then. Yay?
Ugh, msbelle, I feel you on the excel. I find myself doing that a fair amount of the time (with and without deadlines) and it sucks every time.
Sorry if I am bogarting all the calm. I think my old friend Denial is paying a visit.
I managed to go the first 66 years of my life never really feeling stressed or anxious at all, and now the past few months that has all changed. I'm going to say if you aren't anxious right now something is amiss.
Also right on schedule here.
Yeah, I could not get to sleep until 4:00 am. Just too many gears whirring around in my brain. I'd be lying there and realize my shoulders were hunched up with tension.
Scrappy, I was also up until 4. We had a big storm, and I was in too much pain to sleep.
I was actually hoping people would be more interested in the research, as for me that's been the fascinating part . . . I've been helping the granddaughter of a woman who was adopted in Kansas in the late 1930s. I was the first close match who'd come up; once my mother tested, we were able to narrow her potential fathers to one of my great-uncles.
There's a book that came out this year on consumer-grade genetic testing, Libby Copeland's The Lost Family, that features Alice Collins Plebuch's search for her father Jim's genetic family as the thruline. It discusses genetic privacy, "ethnicity estimates" (population scientists: oh Lord please stop), big data sets, the rights of adopted/donor-conceived children to accurate genealogical and medical history weighed with their biological contributors' right to privacy - it's a dry read in places, but I recommend it.
For me, I finally have context for how my family reached this unbelievably fucked-up place: there are literal generations of trauma that narrowed people's focus to survival. I have a great deal more compassion for everyone's bad choices.