He cooks. And does most of the house work but yeah....I mean he is content with his life and that is not what I want.

But I'm going back to work. I got paid unemployment and the stimulus check. And I'm not doing anything right away but I'm going to continue to spend as little as possible, and wait and see how work goes and if work is staying stable take the stimulus money and anything else I can save and pay off some credit card debt and start chipping away and get in a better position to make decisions. I can't afford to live on my own here, at least not righr now but I want to have less debt before I think about ending things and moving out.

But that is kinda where I am.

We are under a tornado warning. Possibly 2 on the ground nearish here.

Congrats!!

That's a smart plan, askye. Stay safe! What is up with all these tornados, I feel like I'm hearing about more of them than usual.

When my sister finished watching she called my parents to say "I didn't understand any of that but it went really well. I think I need to run around the block!" Which sums it up pretty well.

Stay safe, skye!

Congrats to your nephew, -t!

I went actually inside a grocery store this morning and that has sapped my will to do anything else the rest of the day.

Holy fuck, y'all. Yesterday was grocery day (TJs and Meijer), and by the time I got home, I was DONE for the rest of the day. And the thing was, there was nothing different about shopping from the last few weeks. I think it's just cumulatively gotten to me.

After I put the groceries away, I took a 3-hour nap yesterday. I *never* nap. (Not out of some Puritan anti-nap belief; I'm just incapable of napping unless I'm sick or drugged. Or, apparently, completely worn out from quarantine shopping.)

It was my first time actually going in and shopping since all this, I've been doing pick-up or delivery, and all that being aware of where everyone else was and which way the aisles were supposed to go on top of the usual stresses of grocery shopping (it's never my favorite thing to do) really wore me out.

Tornado warning is over. We have a tornado watch until 10 and a severe thunderstorm warning until 8:45.

We spent most of the warning hunkered down in the bathroom so that was interesting. And not something I want to repeat.

But that is kinda where I am.

That's a good plan. Aside from everything else, it just doesn't sound like a good living situation for you with Matthew's mom there. You basically have to hide away to get any peace. And being at home should be a place that *gives* you energy, and lets you restore.

I went actually inside a grocery store this morning and that has sapped my will to do anything else the rest of the day.

Mr. Loomy went grocery shopping this week, and not only did it wipe him out for the rest of the day, but he now knows that wearing a mask triggers all his claustrophobia issues, which makes him not be able to breathe deeply, and sets off a massive panic attack.

ION, I left the house! We went for a drive! I haven't left the house since ... March 8th, for Dad's birthday lunch, so this was weirdly exciting.

(I had Mr. Loomy take a photo of me so I can post it to my office's WFH slack channel to prove I don't immediately burst into flame upon contact with sunlight.)

Matthew is a very caring and loving person and I do care for him and love him but he lacks a certain amount of ambition and he is in no real hurry to move out and I need to be out of this house. And part of me hiding away is that ... I have a desktop not a laptop so I'm not mobile but even if I was almost all of his day is playing Xbox and I don't want to just sit on the couch and be there while he is yelling at the game.

Matthew is a very caring and loving person and I do care for him and love him but he lacks a certain amount of ambition and he is in no real hurry to move out and I need to be out of this house.

He does sound sweet, and I'm sorry to be critical. But I am eager for you to have a better living situation, and I think you deserve something more from your partner if you want to build a life with them. Anyway, I know you're working on it and have a lot of constraints to finesse.